I went to school this morning with my dad for my enrollment and fortunately & unfortunately.. My section this 1st sem is 2-BSN 2F. From AHSE-1A, I got lower, but it's okay because we're not ranked anymore except the pilot section, some of us transferred to another school because of the tuition fee got increased, and some just want to switch another course or school.

My average grade was 2.12 last finals, I think I've miscomputed my last post about my grade. So yeah.. there it is.

Next is my schedule: 30 units

Wed :: 7:00-9:00     :: English 13a - 3 units

Wed :: 15:00-17:00 :: P.E. 3 - 2 units

WTH :: 10:30-13:30 :: Bio. Sci. 22B (lab) - 2 units

TH    :: 7:00-10:00   :: For. Lang. 2a - 3 units

TH    :: 14:00-17:00 :: Computer 1C - 3 units

F      :: 11:00-13:00 :: Religion 13 - 2 units - 2 units

FS    :: 7:00-9:00     :: P. Hlth. Care w/ RLE - 4 units

S      :: 10:30-13:30 :: NCM 100 - 3 units

S      :: 14:00-17:00 :: Bio. Sci. 22B - 3 units

------ NCM 100 - 3 units

------ P. Hlth. Care w/ RLE - 2 units

About your hesitation and excuses,
I realized them too.
Someday, will i hate someone like that, too?
If so then, more and more,
Hug my thorns into your soul,
And let them stay in you forever.

 

--honey & clover

A day when everything is perfect and when everything will turn into memories will eventually come. But I'll probably remember over and over again...

You were there, and everyone else was there. The day where we all searched for just one thing. The blue sky, the smell of the wind, and a field of..

How do you give up? Is it done by deciding to give up and following through with it? Or is it by taking steps away from your true feelings?

I wonder if someday I will forget the smell of his brown hair, the feeling of his cold ears, and the warmth from his back... I wonder if even this pain will all disappear and be forgotten. All of it. With nothing left behind. Almost like there was nothing there from the beginning.

-Yamada

And I'll open and close my eyes over and over again, like taking a picture... burning these memories in my heart somewhere. The sweet smell of the cakes.. and the sound of everyone's laughter.

-Takemoto-kun

Taken advantage of my smiling face...
Being drunk, but the sake in my mouth, oh!
At that key moment my face teared up.
After time passes it gets depressing.
Even if I hold my head believing that it was a dream, the bed that tells stories, goes white cold.
Climbing above the clouds, the night that turned silver..
The binding mistake that won't go away.

Did u know that when people appear in ur dreams, its because of their feelings wanting to see you... that they escape their bodies and enter ur dreams.

The two who would act thought similarly at first didn't get along, but then drew together with a soul similar to when it's first born. I was gazing at you, who looked as if you would disappear if I touched you, eventually you'll become a bird, holding closely the worn-out promises... Sad things happen but dreams continue.. Don't close your eyes, until the rising arrives.

"How long can u remember voices? I get worried and repeat it several times in my head. I can remember it. I can still remember it."

--Mayama-san

Escaping from the boldly painted unpolished lines, I looked up at the night sky.
Jumping over the metal fence like always, I ran down the hard concrete road.
Unexpectedly the two of us are bound together by a thin string, but not with the typical red one.
The trees at the place we met stopped rustling... just the sounds of our breathing stays...
In a town with no one to play with, we smile whenever our eyes meet.
Don't shoot me as I run through the night.
I'm running toward the distant light.

"I wanted to see you. I couldn't say anything. But I struggled with those desperate feelings of wanting to see you. But there's only a few things that I've found out... Just the bursting pain of thinking about you.. Just this pain is enough of a reason why I can't distance myself from you"

--Mayama-san

The tiny road behind the school, continued on to the pool.
Along with the summber blue... your memories fade.
That day, on the road home... the promise I made with you.. now and forever... cannot be kept.
One day it will be lost.. but you won't forget.
You can't forgive and... that's why you turned around several times.
Getting upset over stupid things... you smiled, when we locked our fingers in promise.
The dreams that were stuffed into that's small bag were all mine...
at last, you never got out of that deep blue summer.
In a pool where no one is, I am waiting... because I promised you.
When I get out, smoke arises.
and then I stop my feet.

My passion now grows colder than the tears I shed better than anyone else.
I can lie to myself.
I have that power.
Those important words, I've tried to say several times.
My breath gets caught in my chest.
How should I tell you?
My voice to speak is always halfway...

"To wish for your own happiness is sometimes couped with another's unhappiness. What exactly, should i pray for? Since I couldn't pray for my own happiness, I prayed to the moon in the night sky, for the happiness of the one whose warm hand i held."

--Yamada

The crimson moon calls me
I was born there... but where is it now?
The yellow moon calls you
It's where you were born
It looks like we were able to meet
Inside that damp wooden box
Today's fun and passing by
It's time to say goodbye now,
I won't forget about you.

I'm now curled up in my bed
Thinking pointless thoughts...
Whining like a child
About everyone of my bad premonitions
Past midnight, my legs got tangied up
Simply running to meet you.
What will i talk about with you in the end...
There are so many words just scattered about.
At times the humming of the fridge...
Sounds like somebody's response.
Running through the narrow back alley in the middle of the night,
I was overtaken by a shadow.
Now, by your side...
Now, somewhere near you...
I wonder what has changed?
Now, your hands...
Now, your smiling face...
I wonder what they're longing for...

I'm almost at the peak of this hill,
And the foolish lies are about to disappear.
While i thought about the coming of my favorite season,
I hit a wonderful chord at just the right moment...
And i feel as if i can reach such a wonderful heights.
This is for you, who carries on looking for contact rather than words.
It's a painful throb in my chest that's stirred up like powder.
I'll keep watching you without running away from now.
The night is rather somber, somehow it almost makes me cry.
The light from the old star illuminates us.
There was nothing else but that in the world.
If I had entrusted the fragment of my heart...
To that cloud floating on the southerly wind...
Faraway...

 

Happiness can be put an hold but it will continue. It will continue.

The landscape that we can see
By throwing up all the overheated emotions.
Igniting the image...
That had been smoldering for over a half a year.
What was it that we lost?
Even then, it's okay.
We attracted each other with our gravity, didn't we?
It's like a waltz, isn't it? it's wonderful.
While listening to that whisper of a song...
Something the two of us draw out...
As if in a waltz...

 

"I was able to say from the depths of my heart that i'm glad to have come back.
Let's keep riding while holding onto those that are precious to us.
Onto the unmanageable future...
Uncertainties...
Confusions..
Unrequited feelings..
Wishes that won't come true...
Yourself..
Unable to leave everything behind...
Even those days when you just can't find an answer.
I will.."

---Takemoto-kun

"I feel that i can keep believing..
That even the thing all of us were looking for but never found on that day...
Someday...
Surely..."

---Takemoto-kun