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...and I'll be in summer vacation already. So, I'm declaring again a short Hiatus! Should be back, really.. ^^

Yehey! Bakasyon na kami! Well, ang tagal kong nawala dito. Let me take a recap of some things happened a month ago. Modern or popular dance yung finals namin sa P.E., hindi na natuloy yung ballroom, mabuti naman! Pero sumakit naman legs ko after ng sayaw. Sobrang stressed talaga after midterms. Wala na kong line of 1 except Mandarin and English. Wala naman akong bagsak or line of 3, pero halos lahat bumaba grades ko. Sa tingin ko, nakabawi naman ako sa Chemistry nung finals pero hindi pa din enough yung kasi two 2.75 nakuha ko. Pero ayus lang kasi kung iisipin ko na yung iba kong highschool batchmates eh, nagbabagsakan dahil sa Chemistry, yung iba isusummer pa ata. Pero ako, magpapakasaya this summer! ^^

Kahit papano, before magend ang 2nd sem, naging close na kami ng mga classmates ko, hindi siguro super close pero naguusap na kami lahat. Sa wakas! Nalagpasan ko na ang 1st year college! Ngayong dadating na 2nd  year, mas magiging mabigat na ang buhay kolehiyo dahil magkakaroon daw kami ng 3 professional subjects. Di ko pa alam kung ano na talaga mangyayari sa curriculum ng school namin pero sana talaga makayanan ko ulit.

Sa natitirang 1 month, puro gimmicks lang ginawa ko with my friends, mall hopping and kahapon na nga was our last day. First time ko maglaro sa Timezone! Hahaha, Jann influenced me. Naisip ko din na, something for a change since dati nahihiya ako maglaro dun, lagi na lang ako nanonood sa mga friends ko, pero ngayon, kaya ko na! Kakaupload ko lang sa multiply ko ng mga pics kahapon and sa mga days na magkakasama kami. I'll really really miss them. Actually, nakalimutan kong bumili ng dvd ng Coffee Prince para panoorin this summer.

Nagkita kami ng isa sa mga close friends ko from highschool until now. Si Kim, well.. Di ko alam kung bakit ko siya niyaya lumabas, biglaan lang. Siguro dahil miss ko na sila ng best pren ko, eh siya lang naman ang lagi kong nakakausap sa YM since natatakot ako sa status ng bespren ko and besides, super busy daw siya pero sana talaga kasama din siya kahapon. Nanood lang kami ng Meet the Spartans with Phoebe and Ikko. Well, masaya naman, tapos ngayon, ayoko talaga magload, hehe, natatagalan ko ng hindi magtetext! ^^

Kasabay ng month of finals, yun nga, inerase ko sila sa lahat ng accounts ko pero nung malapit na matapos ang exams, inadd ko din sila lahat. Ganun talaga, hindi ko kaya eh. Sobrang daming signs ang nangyayari pag pinipilit kong kalimutan siya. Haunting me........

Nga pala, before I forget, sa mga hindi pa nakaka alam dyan, may DSL na kami! Hahahaha.. Kaya ang saya ko! May Frostwire na so I can DL any song I want.

I also changed my username to ermine dahil nga dun sa Herlou sa tagboard ko, I dunno what should I do about it. But at least, doing this will make me feel comfortable in blogging. Hindi ko na ikakalat ang link ng blog ko!

Hanggang ngayon, wala pa din akong Adobe Photoshop, kelangan ko maghintay na dumating mga ate ko para tulungan ko sa pagreformat. Kung kelan ba naman kumpleto na lahat, tsaka nangyari toh, asar!

Ayun lang! Magpopost na lang ulit ako pag may naaalala na ko na dapat ipost! xDDD

 

Let me share this beautiful message:

I asked God, "How do I get the best out of life?"

God answered: "Don't be a prisoner from your past, leave your past behind because we can never change the past, but we can correct our mistakes, handle our present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear."

Then He added, "Keep the faith & drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs. Life is wonderful if you know how to live."

I just realized that I haven't been real to myself since college. I just find out when I meet Kim and all I did was laugh in front of my classmates in college. Maybe because of this Identity Crisis and this Unrequited Love that are so keeping me back to my past. I'm haunted! Damn! Easter sunday will be tomorrow, the question is, should I go again to a mass? I just cried out in front of my mother, of God and of myself last Sunday's Homily. Well, I was so affected and everytime I go to a mass (which is once in a blue moon), the people are so overwhelmed to see me, as if I am always welcome, that's the scenario when I go there (church). Yeah, and about the homily, the priest said that if everything fails or some people you love died, some people would actually blame God. That's ME! It's not only because of him but everything, even if I explain how I felt, no one would understand how I felt after our highschool graduation. So the priest continued that I should not blame God because if I can take all of his blessings, I should also take whatever problems/sufferings he would give.

After that, I just cried and pretended that I didn't cried in front of the crowd. I'm so lonely ~ the effect of college life. I'm like a prisoner wrapped in a room of darkness and no one is there with me. I can't be myself as I used to (when did I actually be real to myself huh?). Except for those people, my best friend and close friends and my ex. I know even if they don't understand me at times, I know they know how I feel.

Holy week? So? My friends were teasing me because they were thinking that my god is him *lol* I just laughed but deep inside, is that what I really feel? Did I really replaced him as my god? My world is everything but him.

This is officially Unrequited Love beybe!

What's the best thing to do this summer? Of course! Nothing else but to sleep, eat and surf the internet, god damn it! Okay, this is my list for this summer: (since this will be my last summer vacation)

• Davao trip.
• Go to a Beach or Pool (any beach like in Escudero, anywhere!).
• Watch Coffee Prince dvd and other Korean movies, series, etc.
• Excercise! Lose Weight before the Enrollement.
• Reformat my darn PC~!
• Learn Vector Art with Animation in Adobe Photoshop (7/CS2).
• Change my Layout.
• Install everything I have right now in my PC.
• More games to be installed.
• Learn to be a Vegetarian-Frutarian by <3.
• Mall hopping.
• Ozine Fest (Probably I will come) so that I can meet my friends in Tabulas. ^^
• Outfit this summer vacation: Pajamas! (Reasons are too personal).

Probably, I'll accomplish all of these before I turn 18~!

Hah! Long time no blog. Nothing's really new. My sisters went home during the holy week and just left after that week. I've been spending my vacation on surfing the internet, watching movies, series & music vids on TV. I'm back to what I used to do when I have a free time. I always wake up just few minutes before lunch and I always sleep in morning, around 1 to 2 am. Okay, I've been watching these shows on TV.

on GMA7 (randomly):

• Eat Bulaga (because it's my Dad's favorite).
• SOP
• Devil Beside Me
• Ghost Fighter (again)
• Hana Kimi
• 24 Oras
• Takeshi's Castle
• Dating Now

on Qtv (randomly):

• Mermaid Melody: Pichi Pichi Pitch
• Silence
• The Sweet Life
• American Idol (replay)
• RxMen

on Arirang:

• Franceska (addicted to this show, LOL)

And when I have nothing to watch, I usually go to Cinemax, HBO, Star World, Cinema One or MTV, Channel V and Myx. But usually, especially in afternoon or siesta time, I either surf the net or just sleep and then wakes up to watch Dating Now until Hana Kimi.

My sister bought me a dvd of Coffee Prince but I'm planning to buy a new one. Why? She bought me a tagalog version and the episodes were not complete, what I mean is, the first episode is actually the middle part of the story, god damn it! But I can buy a new one in Pateros and the hell?! I don't want to go outside on this kind of weather so I'm still not sure when will I buy a dvd of it. Frostwire is so worth it! I downloaded all of the songs running on my mind since these past few months! And I've been listening to it before I go to sleep. Before I forget, I always listen to Boys Night Out on 89.9, especially on their show Confession Sessions! Hahaha, yeah, I'm a green evil lady. *ROFLMAO* and I actually read their past stories when I wasn't available to catch up with them. So that's my routine as of now. I also seldom call Manoel over the phone, just to have a little conversation about everything & everyone. It's really nice that he's still there since we were in first year highschool.

Speaking of Manoel, I told him that I really wanted to go to the Ozine Fest this April 5-6, besides of meeting Tabulistas, I just wanted to have a chill and it's also a chance to meet Manoel again and so that he could bring me back my cd of MS Office 2007. He's still not sure if he can come. But for me, as long as I'm with someone to go there, I will really really go! I actually asked some of my college friends to go with me and there is a possibility but we will go on Saturday, its fine with me. But I don't want to conclude that I'll come since everything might change and more things might happen.

I want to reformat my pc by tomorrow, really. Because if not tomorrow, my schedule for the Ozine Fest will be screwed! I might bring my pc on April 5 so I really wanted it by tomorrow. Currently, I'm transferring all the files in my USB, maybe I'll finish this later.

My trip to Davao might be on April 25. Bezzie's last day will be on April 16 and Mi-chan will be back on April 18 according to her. XD And of course, Bezzie's bday will be on April 24. Our enrollment will be on May 20. XD

For the next week, I think I should start jogging with Diane by Monday. My dad was planning if we can go to have tennis because he's so sure I'll be a balloon before summer ends.

One thing more! I'm waiting for the anime A La Corda D'oro on Animax. I think, its a magical, musical love story and drawing's great! Nothing has change, I'm still an anime lover but I used to watched love stories, in general, the light ones. It has been years since I haven't watch new anime shows. And this time, I'll try to watch this show. It will be on April 2: 7:00 pm on Animax. 

*New Control Panel is so AWESOME~! ^_^