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To start my first day of the month of December, we went to Market-Market around 4 pm after I got home, I was with my mom and sis. It's very tiring to walk around the mall but you can't even buy something. We just looked for some cloths and beads for the gown of my sister to be used for my brother's wedding on Dec7. We ended up at 8 pm, but then, my mom and my sister were not satisfied so they planned to go to Megamall, I thought we could go home that time, but, yeah... I feel so tired right now. And sadly, I didn't bought anything except that we ate at Sbarro.

Actually, we talked about my eldest sister's supposedly upcoming wedding next year, because we've planned about it earlier than my brother's but it seems it will not happen anymore. I dunno but my sister can't really decide on what she wants for her wedding. Unlike my brother, eventhough he got his girlfriend pregnant, still, their wedding will be continued, so it's still nice.

So, I'll be gone again because on Dec. 14-19 will be our pre-lims and on 19 will be our Xmas party, I was surprised to know that eventhough we're in college, we still have a Xmas party. I think it's because CEU has their 100 years. Anyway, on Dec 8, we will have no classes but on Dec.9, we will having again a play on Megamall. xDD

Till here.. Zaijian~! 17 days to go before my Bday!

I miss you - Aaliyah
It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
said I've been needin you wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Off to college
Yes you went away
Straight from highschool
You up and left me
We were close friends, also lovers
Did everything for one another
Now you're gone
And I'm lost without you here now
But I know I gotta live and make it somehow
Come back.... to me(to me)
Can you... hear me (callin)
Hear me... callin (for you)
for you...cuz it's

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

Now I'm sittin here
Thinkin' bout you
And the days we used to share
It's drivin' me crazy
I don't know what to do
I'm just wonderin' if you still care
I don't wanna let you know, that it's killin' me
I know you got another life
you gotta concentrate baby

Come back to me(to me)
Can you hear me (callin)
Hear me callin (for you) for you
cuz it's

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes
I miss you

I miss you

I...can't...breathe...no...more
Since you went away I
Don't really feel like talkin'
No one here to love me
Baby do you understand me
I can't do or be without you

It's been too long and I'm lost without you
What am I gonna do
Said I've been needin you
Wantin you
Wonderin if you're the same and
And who's been with you
Is your heart still mine
I wanna cry sometimes (Yeah)
I miss you
yeah yeah yeah

 

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Hiatus!

How I missed my blog, really. Manoel's correct about my being on Hiatus, because definitely I'll still come here to post. Well, thanks to Ma'am Angie, my Socio-Anthro professor, she dismissed us earlier so that we can take our lunch. Again, I'm here in our library. We have a two hours break till 2 pm. Damn, I really wish I could go home right now, I dun wanna attend my NSTP subject. In fact, I've heard some of my classmates telling that our professor might dismiss us earlier again because of the event around 4 or 5 this afternoon. It's MYC I guess, it's a singing, dancing contests and also battle of the bands. It was pusponed last week because of the coup de'etat.

Before my day ends, I'll just take a reflection about today. Well, I thought we will have a quiz in Logic and Socio-Anthro but we will just have it by next week. Last night, I actually took an all-nighter because of my assignment in Statistics and supposedly, we will also have a quiz, but our professor was absent so that was a relief. Mandarin is so pressure! We always have an assignment, paperworks! -_-" But it's still fun though, writing Chinese characters and Pinyin is great, but it still consumes a lot of my time.

Next week will be a super tiring week. Let me share a bit about my schedule since tomorrow until Monday have no classes. Starting on Tuesday, a group presentation in Filipino about Ibalon, it's a puppet show. Next is Chemistry, damn.. I hate this subject as of now, we will be having a graded recitation or a quiz or maybe a discussion, I'm not quite sure and also in Thursday (I'll be seeing my annoying chemist professor). OMG~! And the highlight will be my informative speech maybe on Tuesday or Thursday, right after our Chemistry in Lab. I'm really nervous, 100%, I'm not excited since I really dunno if my speech is correct. My topic is actually about Savant Syndrome (research about it if you like). I dunno if my speech will be right, maybe, I'll ask assistance from my sisters about it. On Tuesday, we will have a very long quiz on Religion, our last subject until 5 pm. On Thursday, of course, just the same, we will have our English and then Social Arts will be our last subject until 5 pm again, I think, we will also have a quiz. We actually watched the movie A Walk to Remember yesterday. I didn't thought I would watch again that movie. I'm so proud telling my friends that I've watched it three times in the big screen with my mom and my sisters. Well, I was once a huge fan of Mandy Moore before. I've bought her album and the soundtrack of her movie. As I've watched it yesterday, the impact is quite the same but a bit different compared as before.

Okay, lastly.. On Wednesday, crap. Quizzes on Logic, Statistics, Mandarin (maybe) and Sociology-Anthropology (fucking long). Submission of our assignment in Environmental Science (our last subject for that day).

CEU is really... irritating! How come, they move again our week for the pre-lims. Our exams will start on friday next week until Wednesday (Dec. 14, 15, 17, 18, 19). So our last day will be again... on Dec. 19. That's it! I'm currently worried about my speech right now, help me anyone! One thing, I'm excited about, it's the upcoming Simbang Gabi. I really want to complete those 9 days before Christmas. I was with Chantal last year, but now, I will just go alone and I promised myself I will complete those days. And of course, eventhough we have classes, my birthday is fast approaching! Don't forget my gift! ROTFL~

At this very moment, maybe my family is getting ready for my brother's wedding. I think, it will be this 3 pm and the reception might be this 5 pm.That's why I'm really hoping I could go home right now so that I can attend the said event.

Today is our first day of pre-lims. We have a 2-3 hours break so because of my boredom, I just use the free access of the internet right here in the library. Maybe, this will be my last time to surf here on the month of December. Our last day will be on 19. We already had our pre-lim exam in Logic this morning and uber fucking hard quiz on Statistics, well.. not really uber, I just didn't finish answering the questions, darn it! This afternoon, we will have our pre-lim in P.E. and in NSTP-CWTS. I just hope and praying that P.E. will turn out just fine. >_< Maybe I'll go home earlier today.

Tomorrow is the start of the Simbang Gabi. I am really planning to go tomorrow since my class is up to 1:00 pm. I can relax for the whole day. Since yesterday, I'm not really feeling well, my cough and cold were back! About my informative speech yesterday, LMAO! It turned out really fine, my topic is about Pandas, and yeah, I once planned to change it because if you could compare my topic to the others, it's a bit corny, you know what I mean. But the funny thing is, on my speech, I used or said the mandarin term for Panda, and of course, my classmates reacted on it because Mandarin is so popular to us. So yeah, I have at least the audience.

Note: OMFG! Tomato is also here in the library, eeeeewww!

 ~zaijian!

Last week, I've remembered something about my first day in college. I realized that Elizabeth and I met already during our first day in college. She's actually the first person I met but we were in different sections that time. But as far as I've remembered, I was alone going upstairs from ground floor to seventh floor during that time and there was a person who was also alone and because we were too slow to go upstairs, everybody left us so we've looked at each other and she asked if what floor am I, I answered her that I was going on the 7th floor and I asked her too, she said that she was going to 5th floor. And then, we introduced ourselves with each other, I just remembered that her name was Elizabeth and this second sem, she is the closest friend of mine, I told her what I've remembered but she doesn't remember anymore. XD But really, we complement each other. xDD

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I have something to share with you. It's about my 12 hours sleep last Monday, the night before my Bday. So I sleep from 5 pm until 5 in the morning. Good thing happened to me! I dreamed! It's not usual for me to dream, yeah, I know that everyone dreams but I'm not, really. I often tell this thing to some people but they keep on saying that I've dreamed but I just can't remember what I've dreamed. I kept on my mind what they've said to me but yesterday while I was having my dinner, I've read Bulgar - the newspaper. >_< It tells something about dreams. Here it goes:

DAHILAN NG PANAGINIP

Dear Professor,

1. Nanaginip po ako na kinagagalitan ako ng mama ko, pero sa tunay na buhay, hindi naman niya ako kinagagalitan, ang totoo nga po e, mahal na mahal niya ko.

2. Ano po ang meaning ng binigyan ako ng chocolates ng friend ko, dahil bati na raw kami at huwag ko po na raw pong ituloy ang hindi ko pagpansin sa kanya. Sa tunay na buhay ko, hindi naman kami nagkakagalit ng friend kong ito.

3. Ask ko lang po kung bakit po ba nananaginip tayong mga tao? Saka po, 'di ba, hindi naman lahat ng tao ay nananaginip, meron tulog na wala naman siyang napananaginipan?

This was a letter from Ms. Queenie. As for me, I really don't dream.

ANSWER (summarized):
Alam mo, iha, ang mga pagnanasa, hinahangad, at mga wish ng tao na hindi niya nakukuha o hindi nagaganap sa reyalidad ay kanyang mapananaginipan na nangyari o naganap. Kumbaga, ang lahat ng gusto niya na hindi niya makuha ay magkakaroon ng katuparan sa mundo ng mga panaginip.

Binabalanse ng ating mga panaginip ang ating buhay. Kaya kapag hindi tayo mananaginip, ibig sabihin noon, hindi matatag ang ating buhay o ang ating kalagayan ay masasabing maselan. Halimbawa, hindi ka nakagagalitan ng iyong mama na kapag nagpatuloy ang ganitong kalagayan, sa tunay na buhay ay makagagawa ka ng isang bagay na hindi niya magugustuhan, kaya ikaw ay tiyak na makagagalitan.

Medyo mahirap ang ganoon, dahil ang gagawa ng paraan para ka makagalitan ay ang tinatawag ng mga sikolohista na "unconscious" nating sarili. Puwedeng mangyari na para lang ikaw ay makagalitan ay mabasag mo ng hindi sinasadya ang gamit na iniingatan ng iyong mama. Gusto mo bang mangyari ang ganu'n? Siyempre, ayaw mo, kaya dapat ay magpasalamat ka kapag napananaginipan mo na "galit sayo ang mama mo" dahil natupad na sa panaginip mo ang gustong maranasan sa tunay na buhay dahil nababalanse ng panaginip ang iyong buhay.

It's true, I have notice that I have the tendency to do these things. Or did I already did some things unconsciously (??). T___T

___12/20/2007___

This morning, I woke up at 9:30 am, had my breakfast and watched t.v. and the channel was Star Sports and I saw Kaka! The soccer player. Damn, I just saw him before and I think he's so popular too and great in playing soccer. I've also heard that his team won the last worldcup. And he's way young than him (??), I have just compared him to Beckham. Everyone who know me since I was in gradeschool know that I'm a big fan of David Beckham, it started when I was in sixth grade. I was kinda obsessed about him and everytime I heard something about him, I will definitely panic & search more about him. But since, I haven't updated myself about him except the fact that he moved to other team and since that happened, I never heard about him anymore and I haven't watched him neither on cable channels. Maybe this time, I have to change just for a while my crush. I'll not stop my obsession to Beckham but maybe I'll just put Kaka on my list. ROFL~ XD

Ricardo Kaka of AC Milan
 Name: Ricardo Izecson dos Santos Leite [Nickname Kaka]
Date of Birth: April, 22 1982
Position: Forward Midfielder
Club: AC Milan
Nationality: Brazilian
Weight: 73 KG
Height: 183CM

Modeled for Armani

 

Advance Merry Christmas &

Happy New Year

To All!

 

"You know what is sad about LOVE?

It's when you happened to know that there's just no hope for you being together yet you still pray to make it work.

It's when your mind says let go but your heart says hold on.

It's when you dream of him almost every night only to wake up in the morning with tears in your eyes.

And most of all, it's when no matter how you try to forget him, you just can't.. 'Coz of the fact that you love him & you just don't know why.

Ask me why I keep on loving you when it's clear that you don't feel the same way for me.

The problem with me is that, as much as I can't force you to love me.. I can't force myself to stop loving you!

Yay! At last, I've found the video of this song. If you want to watch it, here's the link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hgGbs3WlL8

If you want to get the piano sheet of this song, click this.

Damn.. Every holidays, I always feel so lazy or unproductive. My always excuse is it's our vacation anyway, so why work or do some things? Vacations are made for you to relax. Just because everytime Xmas vacation comes, my siblings will go home and a lot of things to do in the house, 1 week preparing the food, cleaning the house and stuff. I'm always the one who's in a must to help here. While my sisters, surfing the internet! >_< They always tell me that I'm always here so I have all the time after the vacation, darn it! I need the time right now to give Xmas cards on Friendster, unlike them, they go nothing to do in the internet except checking their emails, friendster and bank account and nothing else!

*calms down* What I've done before Xmas, besides of the fact that I didn't completed the 9 days of Misa de Gallo, all I do everyday is to eat & eat then sleep. Well, I seldom follow my mom and my sister's instructions but at least I followed them. Especially about cooking, and washing the dishes of course. :3 About my school project/s? They actually asked me if I have one, but I answered them none, but the truth is I have one project, it's a group project in Filipino, we will find a Classic Filipino movie to be contributed in MIAD. For me, I know not much but many Classic movies, they're my favorite to watch, especially when Maricel Sorriano is one of the leading cast. She's my favorite. Talking about classic movies, I asked some of my groupmates, eeehh~ they just know some previous Filipino movies. My professor wanted us to find the black & white ones, hearing that, I felt so relieved! I always watch those kind of movies, she also mentioned the Inday Bote, I actually watched one of those starring Maricel Sorriano, it's really fun watching it and our professor told us that if we could find that movie, we can find various movies in the Inday Bote, they're like in a series. One problem is, we don't know where could we find it. A lot of movies are on my mind but still, I can't start doing it, since I'm so lazy... It's a group project anyway. -_-"

Last 2 nights, I've watched the FIFA Worldcup Awards and I saw Kaka! I was thinking if I should replace him for Beckham because I don't think I would be seeing him now that he moved to one of the USA's football team. Kaka is young and hot! And he's in FIFA. Actually, one good shot about him that made me realized for replacing him for Beckham is that he's FIFA World Player for 2007, isn't great?!

For 2 days, I've not yet finish giving Xmas cards on Friendster. I wish I'll be able to finish them all today. Few hours to go before Christmas! ^^

***This post was written last night around 11:30 pm.

It seems that nothing has changed, really.. My Christmas last year and this year were just the same. How did I spent my Christmas? Well, last night, my sister and I went to a mass, I was kinda excited though I'm not used to go early to a mass. The mass took more than an hour and we just walked from the church to my aunt's house, we just did a little chat with them and we walked again from their house going home. Damn, the street children were playing on the streets. I know it's already Christmas but what the heck.. it's not yet new year to play around with their firecrackers and stuff. I almost got hit by one of those. >_> As we arrived home, I was surprised that everybody was asleep already, maybe because my brother and his wife slept here last night, eventhough they were already sleeping, we still ate our dinner and then, I stayed up late until 1 am giving Xmas cards on friendster. I did finished them. what else? My mom, of course cooked non-stop foods for 3 to 4 days! We're already used to it especially me which they expect to eat those when they can't eat anymore. ROFL~ Still, my Christmas is lonely just like last year, it's weird because I still can't force myself to avoid this loneliness. Hearing my best friend's voice gave me a great feeling though, I really missed her a lot, even Mi-chan who also called me this week, I just wish I could see them again if only I can hold the time so that we could spend some time together. I didn't felt Christmas this year, maybe because I am so busy eating! ^^ Instead of texting everyone today, I just sleep for the whole day, of course I greet some of my friends a Happy Christmas.

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I will spend my New Year at Antipolo, my parents and I will go there by tomorrow morning. This coming 2008, I'd rather have wishes than resolutions, I will write about this and my year-ender post when I come back. Classes will resume on Thursday and I'm still not ready.