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Today is almost everyone's first day of class, maybe for elementary, highschool students, and some college students already started last month. As far as I've know, some universities will start their classes on June 13 and for me, my first day will be on June 14. It really annoys me that my brother and almost everybody keep on asking me when will be the first day of class, and though I'm just avoiding to think about it, I still think about it because of those people. My brother asked me if I'm excited or scared about it, I just answered him, yeah, I'm really scared. I'm 60% scared and 40% excited about my college life. I even got headaches and I chose to sleep for the whole day so that I'll not think about it.

I admire Tiffin, she's going to the same school like me and she really like that university so currently, she's so excited going to school. Maybe I'm just thinking too much about it. My sister told me, there's no easy path to take, it's always difficult and I must work hard for it and she know I can do it. My brother said, I must be cool and take things lightly and I might not realize that I can handle difficult things as I may find them easy. I'm really worried what may happen on my first day, I just wish it will turn out very well.

Yesterday, Asami called me on the phone and asked me to come with her just to teach her on Algebra. XD Besides that I'm too lazy to go outside and I'm not feeling well, I just can't see my former highschool friends, it's not only for Asami but for everybody who's my former highschool friend/classmates. I'm beginning to adjust to my new life here though it's not yet started and to all of you guys too, you've started your new life right now, I can just promise to you only a communication via phone or cellphone but meeting? I'm not ready. My mom told me that I must not go, we're in different universities right now and she's worried that Asami might get used to ask me a favor and she'll not allow anyone to disturb me on my college life. Though Asami might be disappointed because I'll not go with her, it's for her own sake, so that she'll learn how to be independent. She can have a tutor if she wanted to but not to disturb or take other people's time for her own sake. XD

Earlier, I remembered that my blog's second anniversary is soon. It will be on July 26, 2007. Since my next layout will by my version thirty, I'm planning to make three layouts before the anniversary, it will be versions 30, 30.1, and 30.2, all of them will be having the same theme, it features Wallace Huo. And then on the set date, my layout will start over again as fading innocence season two version one. XD Well, for a change since it's her second anniversary. I'm currently making my version thirty.

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About my schedule. Classes will start on 14, thursday. XD Here:

MWF

7:00-8:00 -- Philosophy 10 (3 units)

8:00-9:00 -- Psychology 1 (3 units)

9:00-10:00 -- Filipino 1 (3 units)

10:00-11:00 -- English 11 (3 units)

12:00-1:00 -- Math 11 ( 3 units)

TTHS

7:00-9:00 -- Phy. Sc. 11 (lab) (2 units)

9:00-10:00 -- Phy. Sc 11 (3 units)

2:00-3:00 -- History 1a (3 units)

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NSTP-CWTS 11 (3 units)

P.E. 1 (2 units)

Religion 11 (2 units)

Social Arts 11x (2 units)

Crap. There are still no sched. for those four subjects. It's the schedule they gave me and they said that our prof will just give us the time and day for those four subjects, I'm worried if it's true. -__-

Before my vacation totally ends, lemme do a recap here. Well, I can say that my summer was not really that happy. Maybe because it started after our highschool graduation and I admit I always think about what might happen when I'm already in college.

Unlike my past summer vacations, I always enjoyed it, nothing to worry about because when classes resumes, I'll be on the same school again and I would be more excited to see my friends during my last year but now, it's totally different. I'm clueless. After tomorrow is the day! Anyway, back to the topic, I spent my summer at home and my parents and I used to go to our house at Antipolo during saturdays. On weekdays, I was stucked here at home, bored and always feeling sleepy. I used to wake up at 10:00 in the morning and I would switched on the t.v. and watch Mirumo de Pon! on Hero Tv while eating my breakfast. And I would watch Camila on QTV at 11:00, it's actually one hour, so after that show, I'm gonna eat my lunch and watch t.v. again.

And before I go in front of the pc, I used to do the laundry at the back of the house. Of course, I'll not forget that I always talk to someone over the phone, it's usually Manoel and Asami. And when I think that I already done my responsibilities, I start net surfing! XD

Last April, my parents and I went to CEU so that I can already enroll and last May, my mom and I went to Baguio for two days. It's really frustrating. Though this summer vacation is the longest vacation I ever had, I didn't enjoyed it. XD

I should've right this last month, I found out that there are people who are reading my blog and I didn't thought that they would really read my blog. Well, I admit I wrote some stupid, harsh entries here about my thoughts and feelings, and I will not deny it. Everything you read here is true about me, some readers reacted on the way I wrote my entries, they asked me if it's true and hell yeah! It's fucking true. And you can't do anything about how I felt for you people. Hah. Maybe that post was a test if they would still care about me. It's a good thing, some of them still care. Unlike other people who already read that post, they really believe I wouldn't want to talk to them anymore. LOL. Just feel free to read everything here.

I admire this person, Martin which I used to call Iris here in my blog. Well, after all that happened during our third year highschool, he's still there as my friend. Even though he knew that he's one of the reasons why me and my ex broke up, and lots of humor about us had scattered, he didn't believe them. He's one of the people who really understood my situation that time.

Yesterday, Janice called me? She called me in the morning when I was still asleep, she called me over the phone twice and I told my parents, I don't want to talk to her! then my mom asked me why? I told her, Ang haba ng bakasyon, ngayon lang naka alala! My mom told me na nagtatampo lang daw ako. She's one of the people whom I hold grudges into. Why? She never believe me that time, she's one of the people who misunderstood my situation. OH! I remember my promise to her, I'll not get committed into a relationship, I'm not sure until when I should keep my promise, seeing that she's the one letting someone court her.

And for the people who read that post, and still ignoring me, thank God! I'll now enjoy my new life! -^____________^-

I think almost all of the universities and colleges have already started their classes and I'm here spending more hours left in front of the pc before my first day in college tomorrow. Maybe, I'll be going together with my two friends who are also studying in CEU. I just hope I won't be late. I was listening to the radio lately and everytime I heard some callers who are upcoming freshman this year on college, I always wish she/he could be studying at CEU, and a Nursing student like me.

OMG. I really dunno what to do tomorrow, it feels so weird. I might wake up as early as 4:00 in the morning and I hope my friends will come over here at 5:30 but not past 5:30! I told them that they should meet each other at 5 in the morning. I'm really nervous and I'm glad that I am not the only one who also feel the same way. I really dunno what I should be tomorrow when I arrive there and when I enter the room. -______________- And I started net surfing as early as possible for today so that I will end up early. I must also fix my things right after so that I could sleep early. Summer is already finished!

My first subject will start at 7 am at the 7th floor~! Phy. Sci (lab) >_<

Directions: Name seven songs that you're currently listening to and tag seven other people.

Let's see...

1. Samson. I just love Regina Spektor since her Fidelity until now. I love her voice and really nice song.
2. 4 in the Morning by Gwen Stefani. I love the meaning of the song and Gwen often make these kind of songs. I also love her song Cool. 
3. Hello by Evanescence. I listened to it everyday, I have the mp3 of this song.
4. Baby Come Back by Vanessa Hudgens. Yeah, she's half Filipina and I like her voice and her songs. 
5. Stolen by Dashboard Confessional. Just like their other songs, I also like this one and want to listen to it over and over again.
6. Home by Daughtry. I really type his voice, just like It's not Over, I like his songs. 
7. Ice Box by Omario. I really love it~! I don't care if I listen to it over and over again up to now. I can relate to it's meaning.

Whats your middle name?
+ Francisco

How big is your bed?
+ not too small and not too big.

What are you listening to right now?
+ none. x____X

What was the last thing you ate?
+ cookies. :D

Last person you hugged?
+ jonnah.. ^_^

How is the weather right now?
+ different. O_____o

Who was the last person you talked to
on the phone?
+ forgot.

What is the first thing you notice in the opposite sex?
+ Eyes.

Favorite type of Food?
+ Italian Cuisine.

Do you drink?
+ Not really.

Ever get so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
+ Not yet.

Hair color?
+ Black

Eye color?
+ Brown

Do you wear contacts/glasses?
+ Nope

Favorite holiday
+ Hmmm... Christmas.

Favorite Season/s?
+ eeeehh? none.

Have you ever cried over a girl/boy?
+ LOL. Hell YEAH~!

Last Movie you Watched?
+ PotC 3.

What books are you reading?
+ Textbooks.

Piercings?
+ a pair.

Favorite Movie/s?
+ Pride & Prejudice

Favorite college football Team?
+ Real Madrid~! ^__________^

Any pets?
+ None.

Dogs or cats?
+ cats.

Favorite Flower?
+ Amaranthe.

Last time someone gave u flowers?
+ Last JS Prom

Have you ever loved someone?
+ LOL~!

Who would you like to see right now?
+ None.

Have you ever fired a gun?
+ Soon. ^^

Do you like to travel by plane?
+ Sure.

Right-handed or Left-handed?
+ Righty.

If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
+ France and England

Are you missing someone?
+ Sort Of. I miss them.

Do you have a tattoo?
+ No.

Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
+ Nope.

Are you 18?
+ No.

Did you get enough sleep last night?
+ Not really. X___________X

First thing you thought about this
morning?
+ Rice as usual.

What do you have handy at your bedside?
+ none.

Grilled or fried?
+ Grilled.

What makes you unique?
+ Just being myself makes me a unique person.

Are you afraid of the dark?
+ Nope. I'm afraid of the light.

Favorite hangout?
+ none so far.

Things you can't live without?
+ cp, food and money.

Favorite song?
+ Samson.

What are you afraid of?
+ Failing grades.

Are you a giver or a taker?
+ I don't know.

What are your nicknames?
+ Donna, Jack.

Whats your dad's middle name?
+ Carlos also like his surname.

Stuck on a deserted island & could take one thing?
+ food.

Favorite t.v. commercial?
+ none.

First thing you'll save in a fire?
+ Myself.

What are your favorite colors?
+ Purple.

What are the things that you will always take with you?
+ wallet.

What did you want to be when you were a kid?
+ Doctor until now.

The color of your bed sheet?
+ Brown.

What do you think about before you go to bed?
+ About tomorrow. XD

It's almost one week since my first day in college and I haven't posted anything about what happened. But really, my first week is awesome, well I'm satisfied with my friends right now, I really don't want big circle of friends, just three to four friends would be enough for me because if I joined large circle of friends, there might be plastics already who are backstabbing you when you're not around. Even though it's college and not highschool, plastics will never be gone, at least one might be there. Anyway, so I can't say whether if I improved a lot or became mature but I'm doing good in class. Since I'm all alone, no one really knows who I am, I'm trying to be confident and learning to trust myself now a days. Being practical so that I can save money. Being aware outside is really awesome!

One good thing, my professors are really kind but of course they're strict but I don't feel nervous or fear to them. About today, it's really my day! I got the highest score in our quiz in filipino and english though I had one mistake in Filipino but I really want to perfected it. I'm doing this so that my professors will know me. Psychology is so cool~! I'm the only one who bought the book just yesterday that's why I'm the only one who's active in recitation. LOL. I feel so great~! We will also have an experimental assignment in Psychology, our prof asked us to ask some stranger outside the campus to give us one 5 peso coin and it's for us to know what kind of person we should approach. Coolness.

Till here, our quiz in Phy. Sci was moved again by tomorrow so I really need to study tonight. Thankfully, our dismissal for tomorrow is early, it will be on 10 in the morning, maybe I will go to Antipolo and do my assignments there.

When I was in my highschool, I used to cram on things like doing my assignments, research and projects. And when my teacher discuss something, I usually feel sleepy and not in the mood or my focus was not there but of course, I listen to them when I'm only interested. I also looked like I am really listening when I look at my teacher but it doesn't mean I'm really on focus to learn. It was my habit because I know that I can catch up with the lesson and can have a passing or high grades. I can always surf the net and watch t.v. shows, but these things were only from highschool. I can't do these anymore now that I'm already in college.

Being in college with the course you really like is not that hard as it seems. Yeah, I'm super busy now a days and have no time to watch movies or all I could do is to study, sleep and eat (my everyday routine). But I'm really enjoying myself, well, that's the good thing. I find highschool more hard than colllege (??). I'm not so sure since it's only my first week but I believe that once you start it right, it would end just right. I usually get nervous during my highschool and not feeling so confident and I feel so afraid. In college, my confidence just rised up! I don't feel anything like being nervous.

About cramming, I can say that even though I still do my assignments a day before, I think I can now manage my time and make sure that I'll finish all of them in one day. If some of my classmates don't want to go to school just after one week in college, I really want to go or I feel excited to go to school. It's really unusual but when I was in highschool, just waking up for the first day was really annoying and to think that I'll just wake up at 5 in the morning compare today, I must wake up more early like 4 or 4:30 a.m.

I hope I would stay this way or improve better. I'm really looking forward to it. :D

..and now, I've been tagged! -_- I'm too lazy to answer chains but since I'm so busy during weekdays, I must use my free time very well so I must answer this chain. I was tagged by dramaprincess & Yukitenshi.. ^^

Instructions:
Each player starts with 7 random facts/habits about himself/herself. People who are tagged need to explain the 7 random facts/habits about themselves in their blogs. Then in turn, they need to choose 7 people to tag and list their names at the end of their blogs. The player needs to visit their sites too and inform them (say, by leaving a comment) that they have been tagged and that they need to read your (the player’s) blog to find out more about it.

Seven Random facts about me!

1. I would like to eat pasta like carbonara, lasagna and baked mac for the rest of my life!
   
2. I <3 watching football games.
   
3. I hate P.E., sports, running/jogging.. in short, i hate to EXERCISE! but I know I must not, they just give me bodyaches!
4. I love to sleep anytime.
   
5. I never dreamed recently.
6. I hate people who judge me based on my physical appearance.
   
7. I'm starting to be annoyed by any guys without reason except for those guys whom I used to know.
   

I'm tagging: Manoelster, Sid, Kairee, Aruki, Makkun, Yumi, Mhizyu.