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Our first subject today was actually P.E, our teacher didn't discussed or I must say we didn't do anything for today in his class. All of us are oblige to go to the gym though, the boys were playing basketball with our teacher as usual, some are playing badminton and the rest including me, we just watched them playing, I was bored so I go with my friend to the canteen to do her assignment in Filipino about Tayutay. We choose the canteen because we will have our recess afterwards. Even if it was not yet the recess time, some of our classmates were buying already, so I bought two porridge for me and for my friend. Actually it was our first time that we've bought porridge in the canteen on our recess, really.. we just wanted the EGG, hehehe.. We usually buy soup but today is different. Anyway, why am I telling this? I dunno, I just want to.. X3

I hate Filipino subject! For past years, I find Christian Living so boring! But today, Filipino is the worst! I mean, this subject has no sense at all! Why is it so important to learn this while all of us are already speaking in filipino. Our topic in Filipino is the most hateful for me, first is about Tayutay then we need to have our Talumpati tomorrow, our teacher was kinda 'grr' too.. She didn't discussed anything about Talumpati though it was already in our journals, all we need is to read it, but it's her job to make these things clear for us to understand! Darn.. So now, I have no idea how to start making my Talumpati, so I am only researching on the internet it's examples and I am not yet satisfied! XD

~paalam

Argh.. It's been a week since I last posted here, internet card runs out and I have no money to buy for it because today is the celebration of Manoel's birthday, his birthday will be on March 20. I promised him that I will buy him a pizza.. Actually, we ate it this past two hours, yummy!!.. Anyway, this coming Monday will be our first day of Periodical exam, three more school days to go.. XD

Last monday, I guess.. I've tried the CAT training.. Well, I dunno why but I just changed my mind that time.. Maybe because I just want an experience and to think that, it was a sudden.. I really don't know what to do, I have no idea.. XD I've made lots of mistakes there and I still have the guts to smile at the officers.. Some of my mistakes were:

the smiling stuff.. they just telling me.. "Pocket your smile!".. then I still smile.. XD
"Eyes to the right".. I just move my eyes to the right not the HEAD.. XD wahaha...
Also the movements, left, right, etc. etc., I dunno what's that!! haha..
There's still more mistakes I've made..

After all, I just laughed.. ^_^ But then, I quit the next day.. ehehe... Some of the officers were expecting that I will continue it though I've made mistakes that I think made them really annoyed.. nyahaha... I think my purpose were:

to have experience..
to see him.. my new crush..
to make fun with the fourth year officers..
to go home late..

>;3

~au revoir..

Hello!! nyahaha.. New layout again.. I am supposedly studying, reviewing right now but, my energy runned out, well, I've reviewed almost 1 1/2 of my subjects over 3 of them.. Argh.. Tomorrow is exam!! Darn it! XD I hope I can finish studying until this midnight.. ^.^

~byerz

ahiihi.. Today is our last day of school!! Time is really going fast.. It's like yesterday was my first year in highschool then,  I am now going to fourth year, senior! But at last, I can relax myself now.. I can do whatever I want to.. Stay inside the house, here in Tagig or Antipolo, it's fine with me.. I am quite nervous about the entrance exam for college.. I know I need to fix this thing.. I want to go to U.P.!! XD Argh.. I have nothing to say right now, things are going fine.. I mean, I am really okay now with my life.. ^.^

~au revoir!!

Anyway, since I have nothing to say here. Here are some of the lyrics which I was craving a while ago:
 
So Sick by Ne-Yo

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that im alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Cant come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But its the only way i hear your voice anymore
(its ridiculous)
Its been months
And for some reason i just
(cant get over us)
And im stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
Im so over being blue
Cryin over you

And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender i have
Thats marked July 15th
Because since theres no more you
Theres no more anniversary
Im so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

Thats the reason im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?
(why cant i turn off the radio?)

Said im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why cant i turn off the radio?
(why cant i turn off the radio?)

And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why cant i turn off the radio?
(why cant i turn off the radio?)
Why cant i turn off the radio?

 Pag-agos by Updharmadown

At sa aking pagkubli
hampas ng araw pagdamdam ng gabi
tulog ang iyong mga kamay
di nako makapag antay

isang umaga muling aahon
at sisikat sa mga panahon
na tayong pang dalawa
masayang pagsasama

buong araw ng pag-agos
kailan ang huling unos
di alam kung tatakbo
kusang lalayo sayo

isang umaga muli ng pag-iisa
walang mayakap at makasama
pusong pilit na sinugatan
landas kong karaniwan

Alert the Armory by Urbandub

This struggle could be over now
this time, time has changed us
our silence is deafening.
Nothing can make this better
Our answers seldom come
There is death in words we say.

Sound the alarm
What we have built is gone
Our battle has just begun
Mayday! Mayday!

Bring the tears from out of your eyes
Just leave it up to me
Hearts of stone to bring out the cold
It cuts the warmth
It could’ve been easier
Now our bitter words revealed.
Nothing can make this better
Our answers seldom come
There is death in words we say
I’m so sick of you and love.

haha.. I changed my layout again.. I was never satisfied with my past two layouts.. But this layout is for sure... I am really satisfied now. And I already planned this layout for this summer vacation.. XD My mind was really confused a while ago about this thing..

Anyway, this features one of the characters in Puchimon.. nyahaha.. Solace? I dunno.. I just want to feel more happiness in my life.. ^.^

-- farewell

uhh.. I woke up at 10:30 in the morning, actually, I have things to do.. But I didn't do it.. XD Argh.. It's now the first day of my vacation so I am too lazy to think something or do something. Though my mom told me to change the bedsheets and pillow cases in my bedroom. I just fixed my books into the cabinet then I will just do the rest later, haha, I still want to spend my time with my lovely, full of virus pc!! XD

-_____________- I just slept for two hours a while ago, whole day texting and watching t.v.. tsk...

~till tomorrow..

Your Five Variable Love Profile Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is high. It's your way or the highway when it comes to love. You like to be very involved in your sweetie's life. No question, you like to be the one calling the shots. Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered. Your Personality Is Guardian (SJ) You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented. Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules. You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader. You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you. A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do. You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up. In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly. At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions. With others, you tend to be polite and formal. As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself. On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!

Cheese Pizza

Traditional and comforting. You focus on living a quality life. You're not easily impressed with novelty. Yet, you easily impress others.

 

*yummy* I am here at our house in Antipolo at the Webber computer cafe. We've gone from a restaurant called Dampa..?? We ate our lunch there, all the foods were so delicious, well.. All are seafoods (my favorite).

Like uhmm.. crab, shrimp, salmon steak.. really good!! ^_________________^ I am with my sister here at the computer cafe, argh.. I am quite annoyed because I don't even know people here and to think that beside me is a strange guy playing nba.. haayy.. All I can think are the foods that were actually inside my stomache. I don't ate too many that's why I think I am still hungry.. XD We will go home tomorrow in Tagig as usual. I have things to do there.

[# 100 entry] Wohoo!! I've reached 100 entries for a nonsense talks..

~au revoir!!

aaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! >_< fuck it! I am so exhausted!! I am with my sister earlier this morning, we've gone from a mass, then I've took a one by one picture for my i.d. (i dunno what i.d. is that! but i need it..). When we've gone home, my mom took me with her to some kind of a mountain, it was a sudden so I really have no idea what the hell was going into my mom's head!! After I while, I had an idea that we will go to a meeting in Binangonan.

For 50 years, I've breathed fresh air!! It was quite fun for me, but refreshing ambience took my mind into no where, I mean.. I've been daydreaming for whole day and wasn't that alert of what's going on around me. I am gaining my consiousness every time I eat.. nyahaha.. XD I have lots of illusions, fantasies and realizing in the end that I may never have them and just wanted to cry out. Maybe I am really confused. I don't know what to do. I am seriously not with myself. I've just arrived home right now. I dunno what my feelings must be, I am feeling guilty, wrong about myself and even anger and love combined. Damn. And sometimes I've been talking to myself that.. "Why am I being punished by God even though I am not doing some mistakes in my life?!" or "Why am I still suffering though I accepted my mistakes?!" and "Why am I still feeling bad though I accepted that this is a karma for me,? my Pride was gone! My soul is teared apart.."]

But even though I am like this, I have no regrets because this is the path I choose..

~goodbye

nyahaha, I dunno why this entry is entitled like this. Anyway, I had received my one by one pictures this morning. It was my brother who brought them from Kodak. Today is so boring! XD I just cleaned and fixed my room after I ate my lunch. Then, I watched t.v. with my mom. Well.. I really have nothing to say here.. Even though I am so bored, I still can't sleep.. maybe I just woked up really late and slept last night late! XD

~au revoir!!

So bored!! I need to stay here in the house and there's nothing I can do about it. Anyway, last night was kinda weird. My first boyfriend (actually my ex) was texting me.. and I think he wants me back. Even though he told me I've been changed a lot and that's not good for him, so.. why he is telling me that his feelings gone back for me?.. XD He even asked me for a date? (I guess..) On March 30, it will be the deliberation of our report cards, and our section will go to a swimming but not all of us will go because some people don't want to be dark skinned and some are just too lazy to go out (I am one of them), then my ex asked me to go out with him on that day in Megamall.. I didn't answer anything. I think he's confused about his feelings. He can't say it easily and even think twice. He said that he can't understand his feelings, but he knew his feelings for me gone back but he must not told me that, because he thinks that I am not ready yet for a new relationship. XD I dunno what must I think or do about him. We've been friends for few months.

Change the topic!! I really want to eat food! It's not that I am not eating here or there's no food. It's just that I wanna eat more!! nyahaha.. Though today is Jaline's birthday, she didn't celebrate it, but we were planning to go to mall this 23 because the characters of the korean novela Jewel in the Palace will go to market market. But it's not yet sure, but I think I want to go there. ^.^ Whew.. !!

~au revoir!!

Even though I have nothing to say here.. I still want to post.. wahehe.. I am currently chatting with my friends on yahoo messenger. Sad to say one of my friends will not study anymore in our school. haayy.. XD I am speechless.. this is too bad..

~au revoir!!

Damn.. I was like this since yesterday. Since our last day, I've been viewing zipdee (i hope the spelling is correct) channel on our t.v. because I just want to watch and hear the song/video Missing. At first I dunno what band it is. I really thought it was Kamikazee because the two vocalists are quite have similarities. But for several weeks, I had failed to know what band it is. So I really think it was Kamikazee and I was proud to tell everybody that I have a huge crush on their vocalist, Jay.

But suddenly.. Last night, while I was watching Kim Sam Soon and Jewel in the Palace, I switch the remote to the other channel and luckily.. I ended up on MYX.. I am really surprised that the guest band was Nerveline. And that is their band! Which I was looking for! I've found out earlier this morning that the name of their vocalist is Giann/Giancarlo Sotto. So that's it! I also add them to my friends' list on friendster: jontax77@yahoo.com. And I really saved their pictures into my computer (don't want to grab it!).

Well some people already knew about my huge obsession for him and they really think I am weird.. But I dunno what is weird for them.. Because everyone told me that if she will be in my situation, she will not have a crush on him. Actually, my type for a guy is really unique and not some sort of a pretty boy out there who I think is for teens only! I think they just appreciate some guys like that because they are "handsome" for them. But I am looking for more realistic and not imaginary guy..

~au revoir!!

Set Free

Here in silence is where I lay
Thoughts of you are always in my mind to stay
Memories in my heart I've always kept
Sometimes wondering again why you have left

I can't move on 'coz the feeling's too strong
Wanted you to know that I've waited for so long
The love that we have suddenly had to die
I can't help but cry for this sad goodbye

It would be hard for me to let you know
This feeling inside me is what I can't let go
But I want to thank you for what you did to me
And for the special thing we had that I have to set free.

Baby Blue Eyes

A smile
It always begins with a smile
He captures your attention
Takes your breath away
Turns your world upside down
Feeds you sweet lies
Deception coated in promises of forever
His love he gives to you on a diamond
encrusted platter
"Take it, it's yours"
Fairytale ending in a bottle

Until the next girl comes along...

I am currently alone here in our house, my brother goes somewhere... I dunno.. apply for a job.. Anyway, I am currently enjoying myself with my lost forum which I joined four years ago. It was anime-club, but it's name was changed but the members and staff are all the same, so I registered immediately. The link is http://www.otaku-mangazine.com

I think my internet card will soon run out! Damn.. gtg!

haayy... I've been posting for two days in that forum! I woke up just now.. I'm with my mom and my brother who is still asleep on this time! After lunch, my mom decided to go to market-market with me. So.. b.o.r.e.d!!

~bye for now

Arghh! I've been watching t.v. since I woke up this morning at 10:15 a.m. I just have nothing to do, I can't get through the internet because of my brother. Anyway, tomorrow will be the deliberation of our report card or our grades. Whew! I've been nervous lately. XD

~farewell

Haayy... nakuha ko na grades ko kaninang umaga.. may kasama pang pictures na worth 200php dahil sa mga pictures nung prom.. eh buti na lang pala naka hingi ako ng pera sa dad ko kung hindi, ipon ko magagastos ko!  syempre andun ung tatlong third year advisers ng batch namin.   Hmm.. ako ata pinakaunang dumating kasama ung classmate ko. Wala lang.. Medyo ilang na talaga ko sa school namin and sa ibang batchmates!  Andun ung mga batchmates namin na sumali sa MOCC training. Congrats sa kanila at nakatagal sila.. esp. sa best ko! -- Chantal!  hehe.. hindi na talaga ko sumali.. For what?! magpagod?

Anyway, bumaba naman grades ko! Bwisit!  Pero buti na lang for 2 grading periods, mataas naman ako kaya hindi naman masyadong big deal. I only got the general average of 86.67%! >_<.  Syempre nakita ko din ung mga kabarkada ko. At hinintay pa namin ung friend namin na lilipat na nga ng ibang school. I'll miss her talaga.  Humingi pa ng pic sakin! (inaasahan ko na un) Hayy.. Gustong gusto ko na umuwi nung time na yun, pero nag tiis na lang ako.  Ewan ko ba kung bakit ganito nararamdaman ko, may pagkainis na hindi ko malaman kung bakit, medyo nalilito at gustong tumakbo palayo.

Haayy.. Pag uwi ko naman, natulog agad ako, nagising na ko ng mga 1:30 p.m. at hindi na ko nakakain ng lunch!  Buti na lang kakaluto pa lang pala ng ulam. Ang boring talaga! Pagkakain.. Eto.. Post nanaman sa dating forum! Tapos open ung friendster account, update this blog! Mabuti naman at pwede na dito sa Tabulas ang 12 usericons, makakapag upload na ko lalo ng mga panamang user icons ko..  ehehehe.. XD Bago nanaman layout ko!! wohoo!!  Kinakabahan ako sa college talaga, kahit hindi pa ko nag fofourth year, ewan ko! Dahil siguro sa entrance exam, ang dami kong iniisip, hindi ko pa nga alam kung pano na ko makakakuha ng application form eh, hindi pa ko nag rereview..  eh sa June na daw ung entrance exam sa U.P.  Bagay na bagay talaga yung entry title na toh sa mga sinasabi ko ngayon, quote ata ng Ms. Shirley Manson ng Garbage yan!  ehehe, idol! XD Haaayy.. kung ano ano na nasabi ko dito kasi nag tatagalog na ko!! wahahaha..

I just wish I could disappear.

~fade away..

I dunno what's so good today..  Maybe it's the weather since it's been raining yesterday until now. It's a cold weather, that's why "I love the rain"..  So relaxing yet so depressing, and spending this kind of weather eating noodles..  I've been collecting avatars these days, it's fun 'coz I can upload now 12 user icons here in Tabulas.  Hmm.. I'm lacking of words to say. Well, tomorrow.. My sisters will go home here in Tagig.  Maybe to have a celebration for passing the bar exam. All of us here are so happy for her.

~au revoir!!