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People born in the Year of the Horse are popular. They are cheerful, skillful with money, and perceptive, although they sometimes talk too much. The are wise, talented, good with their hands, and sometimes have a weakness for members of the opposite sex. They are impatient and hot-blooded about everything except their daily work. They like entertainment and large crowds. They are very independent and rarely listen to advice. They are most compatible with Tigers, Dogs, and Sheep.

So busy.. XD

~au revoir! jet ame!!

Juno and I just broked up last night, and to think that the reasons were:

'bestfriend ko daw ex ko pero i told him na naiinis ako dun..' Darn, sinabi ko na dati sa kanya na ang purpose ko is just to say sorry to my ex/bestfriend/friend, ayoko lang na magtanim ng galit yung tao.. Duh.. hindi naman ako makikipagbalikan dun...

'hindi ko daw siya pinansin nung sa cdsa.com nung may tinanong siya sakin??' haayy.. kasalanan ko nga kung bakit hindi ko narinig pero i didn't do it on purpose, anu naman ang dahilan para hindi ko siya pansinin..

'dahil binigyan ako ni martin ng chocolate nung umaga' hmm.. hindi ko na kasalanan kung binigyan niya ko ng Birthday gift.. Kung meron man kahulugan yun.. Hindi ko naman ipagpapalit si juno dun.. XC

'dahil sa testi ni mae'.. kahit cnong makabasa nun, talagang maguguluhan kasi wala namang katotohanan lahat yun.. even jessica, na guluhan.. hayy..

~paalam

Effects of a Broken Heart

`my hand writing was messed up.
`my body was so nervous/shivers when having a glimpse of him or talking about what happened.
`blank minded
`hysterical
`moody
`snobby
`saying none sense things, foul/violent words.
`want someone to talk to.
`need advice.
`can't breathe.
`can't concentrate.
`don't know what to do.
`always asking repeated questions.
`doesn't like to eat.
`confused.
`scared.
`can't sleep.

........ XD

Luckily.. Last Friday, I talked to Siover asking what's the real problem between us, so he told me.. he was so negative, optimist. Sinabi ko na cool off na lang kesa break. Pumayag siya then after he told me the real reason, he said na wag na lang mag cool off. It was so confusing, hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang gusto niyang mangyari. Hay.. We really must be back together dahil wala naman akong pagkakamaling ginawa.. Though it really hurts me of what he said nung gusto niyang magparaya. I didn't felt love was there in his words. XD

But finally, we're back again as normal..

~au revoir!!

We've totally broke up.. Even though, we still love each other, I think we just need to focus in our career or studies. I have nothing against that. It still hurts me. But I will still love him secretly. Maybe I was not very expressive on expressing my feelings for a special person, but if everyone could just see the whole of it before it was torn into pieces, maybe some of them will be surprised. If I really value and love my friends, what more to the person I really love. Some people were curious, why is it my love for him is like this, this is the first time they saw me in this mood. Anyway, I am really thankful to have my friends beside me.. One weird thing was I really don't want to go home earlier. I was thinking that for past three days, when I was at home, all I can do was nothing.. I mean, I am really feeling alone, I can't eat, I even can't follow my internet schedule time, and sometimes thinking that my life was so worthless, maybe because he was gone..

But why am I really in love to him? Why do I love him from the very start?.. Besides that, he was my childhood friend since grade three.. We're very close.. I think, because when I was in the middle of depression, break ups were still on me that time, and thinking that I cannot love anymore, and I don't have the guts to trust men or guys anymore, he showed me the way to love again, he thought me to give myself a chance to love a person like him. For all the person that I love, he's the one I can't give up unless he told me so. Whew.. I notice that my blog really sounds different these days.. XD

~au revoir!

At last! I've come here to post again, i think.. I've been on hiatus, wahehehe... I abandoned my pc for so many reasons and I don't want myself get involved with it..  two weeks? that's quite annoying but it's so good, it was fixed today, a very good time for me because, projects are coming! Next month will be our school's foundation day and we will have an exhibit, some of the teachers already gave a class project and some are group projects.

So I am managing my time and really getting busy, speaking of managing time, for past few days, I was lack of rest and I almost spent my time sleeping at home and when there's no teacher in our classroom, I just close my eyes and I already took a nap.. XD And I am cramming now for doing my next layout this coming February.. I am still confused what should be the next title.. it's either, 'Emotional Overdose' or 'Demolition Love'.. XD

~jet ame!!

I am at the j and c computer shop with Joana, but I am not expecting that Airisu will be here too! Suddenly, Mariel also went here.. But we're just here for one reason, we need to research the synopsis of William Shakespeare's novels like.. Othello, Romeo and Juliet, Hamlet and Macbeth.. XD

Currently, I am so hungry! After this, we will go again to the school to get our things and go home.. Later, I will surf the net coz' I really miss this! I am forced to go here because of the printer, my printer at home has no ink! X3

~jet ame!!

I gone home from Antipolo at 8:00 in the morning and expecting that my friend Tiffin will go with me on a mass but she told me, she was not feeling well, so I called 'everybody' just to accompany me at the church but I was disappointed, so I just slept until 11 am.

Today, is the project day in English and all of us are oblige to go to Airisu's place. But almost all of them gone yesterday to that house, so I changed my mind, I've planned that I will not go, but everybody texted me that I must go because they need to buy canvas paint and they need money for it. We can only just buy that canvas paint at the market-market, so I went together with my classmate. Sad to say, we've failed to buy one, the only thing left was so expensive, I mean the original one. We go back again, then we told them what happened. Some of our classmates were already there, then we've planned that we still need to buy that expensive one that was left, so me and my another classmate, Karen went back to the mall. We already bought the thing. Suddenly, while buying, there were two strange guys looking at us! After we bought, outside the national bookstore, they are still there! They look back and again.. Looking at us, then we noticed that they're following us. Stalkers.. I really hate them! So we walked faster and faster until we run, after a while, they were gone at last! Bad thing, Parokya ni Edgar were there but we're already inside the FX, waiting it to be fulled, it took really 15 minutes.

We arrived at 6 pm, I know it was really late, but they must thanked us for buying that canvas paint. When we arrived, Arian and the other artists were mad on us!! They said foul words and we're not expecting that! What the hell?! I was so tired going to that mall back and forth!! And they just made guesses that we mean to take long hours before we gone home. It just made my blood boils... Grr..

~au revoir!!

We just had an ordinary day. Long test will be on Wednesday up to Friday, so all of the teachers were reviewing us, but we have so many projects especially in English, we need to pass it by tomorrow. Actually, my classmates are still at Martin's house right now doing the project and I am here at home, net surfing.. LOLz.. Damn, they will spend their time up to 10 on the evening and that is the earliest because, I think the artists especially Arian, also Baldovino, I guess will sleep over at Martin's house tonight! But I am still proud of them, they really made it good, our teacher really liked it.. I can imagine it by tomorrow.. Well.. Hope they can take care of themselves.. Goodluck for us! I miss Juno.. XD

~bye