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I was starting waking up early from these past few weeks, maybe because of the influence of my Siover. I've been expecting today that we would have our recitation entitled Universal Prayer by Alexander Pope and a messy discussion on our Math time. But luckily, my math teacher was called by the principal to have a meeting, I guess...  And our recitation was posponed and we will just have it on Monday, but so relieving that I already memorized the whole of it!! Also in our basketball game, it was posponed because the gym was used by the scouts, we will also have it on Monday.

We've had our quiz in Chemistry, and surely, I will report next week together with my classmates about Molality probably on Wednesday, next week will be so busy again for me. I am hoping that our school sem-break would be early, so that I can relax and hoping I can spend my time with my Siover because I was thinking last night, that I am not spending my time with him usually because of my being workaholic, and too much addictiveness on the internet. I need to pay back my time to him!! So I am planning to ask him to accompany me even on my practices like on my reports, if he's not busy.. But thankfully, he always understands me, so we're still happy and I am so lucky to have him.

~au revoir!!

Earlier this morning, at the school, all of the students have gone outside to wait for Ms. International but she didn't came earlier as I've expected also the other people so we've just had a food trip or street food trip! Then we've gone back inside our classrooms then after few minutes, she came and just wave and wave around, people are so happy to see her, I admit she's pretty. But some people or students didn't saw her maybe some of them are tired waiting under the heat of the sun. Anyway, I think my report in chemistry will be on wednesday so I am assuming, I will not post on here tomorrow, but I'll try bacause I really love doing this thing! ^^

This afternoon, I didn't saw my favorite teacher, she was absent.. I wonder why.. but I really miss her.. XD And Airisu, my past crush, I think we're getting close to each other, I think it will last soon. But my point is we're just friends and sharing secrets, he shared a secret to me that I must keep from my best friend.. hmm... but if they will win the basketball game tomorrow, then I'll definitely not tell it to my best friend but if they loose, I will be able to say it to her. That's our agreement and I kept on teasing him, I screamed a lot on our dismissal time, and some chizmax will arrive soon, maybe tomorrow.. Because someone had a crush on me, I guess.. I am not really sure of it, my friends are doing some actions about him if it is really true, but I really don't care at all even if I already knew it so early before they knew it and he already showed me some proofs, but it will not break my relationship with my Siover, my soulmate and my only true love.. Anyway.. gotta go! I have lots of things to do by now..

~au revoir!!

Am I really exempted in the upcoming periodical exam?! I just can't believe it, we have a spelling in our english time, and I got the most hardest word 'acquiescence' we are three who got the right spelling so we're exempted, but the problem is, it would not be possible to make a student exempted for periodical exam, it can be possible if it is a long test only. So I badly need to confirm it to my teacher, and I must pray so that, that exempted thing would be possible.

Tomorrow is the day, for me to report in our Chemistry!! And I must be able to pass my project in english earlier before my teacher arrives.. arrgghh!! I am so confused! Last night, something terrible problem arrived, I sent my text message for Siover to my eldest sister. So they called me together with my another sister, they asked me about that text, for whom should that be!! I made so many stories to hide the truth!! I really hate doing that! I am so depressed.. Earlier, I didn't watched the basketball game, but I managed to come up to the last minutes of the game but we lost and when I came there, all I can see in my classmates eyes were teary eyes, I thought we could win the game, but it didn't happened as we've expected. All our players were so frustrated of what had happened. Our section was such a looser! Even though we've tried to win the past games, we always loose. This week is such a piece of s**t!

~au revoir!

So I left you blinded soft and binded
tied to you angry chair
it raised it's hammer and smashed you under
yet still you seem to care
love and despair it's just one more
a bit closer to the bone
and the left side's gone it never lasts that long
you look up now, eyes hollow
your weakness flows through the air
you clench your fist and smash in guilt
child lost and without a prayer
love and despair I don't want to....
I don't want to try I don't want to cry
oh yes, love she'll lie I'm sick of all of this....
Now emptiness is upon you
as pain casts it's glassy stare
hates now the child and the reason you gave
for the mess that you made if only you could be saved
but all the times that you prayed
were only washed down the drain
after all's said and done....
it will still be the same

Today was very exhausting day, not only for me but for my classmates. We even didn't had a class today, I focused in our class exhibit and my project that was similar to my project when I was first year. I make the ancient map of Greece and it was little bit destroyed a while ago.. arrgghh.. XC.. But I was glad that the people who have done it will replace a new one tomorrow, and I am surely I will finished the map by tomorrow if all the time will give to us for making the projects. All of us were exhausted in the afternoon. And my damn adviser was so b*tc*!!

Anyway, we didn't have any care to him because all of us hated him! He's so emotional over-acting psycho! Ahh.. my legs are aching, and I am feeling so sleepy by now, maybe I really woke up early today, so that I may pass my project in English and to study my report. Hopefully, my report in Chemistry was successfull. I also confirmed about the exempted thing, it was true, so I was so happy.. *^_______^*

~au revoir!! 

Actually, this is a part two of my last entry. We made again our props for our cultural ambience, and it always made me so stressed, frustrated, exhausted for short it made me so tired, sometimes, I just felt dizzy, sometimes, I felt my head ached for a little while then it would go away and come again. Just like repeated actions for two days since yesterday. I think I can be more exhausted for tomorrow's activities, because some of us will finalize some things into it. And three of my classmates will buy all the materials needed for the exhibit on Monday. But I cannot attend the props making on Saturday because I will attend a wedding reception. I was relieved because we still have our project making on Sunday after mass. I hope my members will cooperate with me, I hope they will make our props also our project on Saturday, or if not them, I hope someone or somebody will take the responsibility while I am not there.

Anyway, a while ago Airisu was getting so emotional, I just said to him.. "ang emo pala nito" - "you're such an emo".. then he reacted surprisely saying that I must not compare him to my ex-boyfriend who is really an emo person.. hmm.. I was not comparing him, I was just irritated to emotional people. Airisu is such a naughty person, I am thinking that he's like my tail, because everything I do, he always come over and just doing none sense things and even making it more complicated for us to finish the props, even when I was playing jackstones with Manoel, he always come around like a tail over my back. Whew.. I was so moody today, I was angry to everyone and didn't made them laughed or something that I seems to be the one they knew before. I even didn't talked to my Siover this day except that this dismissal time, he accompanied me when I was going home. I am feeling that I will get sick soon. Maybe because I ate too much chocolates and because of dust everywhere especially in our classroom because of that sh** cultural ambience.. I just wanna sleep!!

~au revoir!!

don't feel like home, he's a little out...
and all these words elope, it's nothing like your poem
putting in, inputting in, don't feel like methadone
a scratching voice all alone, there's nothing like your baritone
it's nothing as it seems, the little that he needs, it's home
the little that he sees, is nothing he concedes, it's home
one uninvited chromosome, a blanket like the ozone
it's nothing as it seems, all that he needs, it's home
the little that he frees, is nothing he believes
saving up a sunny day, something maybe two tone
anything of his own, a chip off the cornerstone
who's kidding, rainy day
a one way ticket headstone
occupations overthrown, a whisper through a megaphone
it's nothing as it seems, the little that he needs, it's home
the little that he sees, is nothing he concedes, it's home
and all that he frees, a little bittersweet, it's home
it's nothing as it seems, the little that you see, it's home...

I have gone to a wedding today in Cainta, Rizal with my father and my eldest sister. Of course, I ate a lot! Then we arrived home together with my sister in Tagig at o3:00, I guess.. Then she accompanied me to the market-market because I need to buy the materials for the cultural ambience, because we need to finish it by tomorrow.

But when I've got home, I receive a news from my classmate that my group members have done nothing to our project today! What the hell are they doing?! I texted them angrily!! I just said to them that they need to pay me tomorrow if not, the grade for the project will be all mine!! I am just a little bit frustrated but more on happy because I really miss my Siover and I've just called him a while ago on the phone, so that's made me happy.. *^____________________________^*

~au revoir!!

Exam days are over, this was the last day. I am just hoping that next week would be easy for us because I was so stressed from these past two weeks especially on those exhibit days! XD I am back again to layout designing as usual and I’ve never finished one of my layouts! But I must finished <b> them </b> before November. I am also planning to buy some birthday cards.. hehehe.. I don’t wanna say for whome should that be, but it’s for a really special someone.. that’s one clue. I am not sure if I’ll gonna buy it from the Libris bookstore. On Monday would be the leaving rosary, and I really hope our sem break will be early, so I can spend my time with my sisters in Antipolo or maybe I just spent my time here with my brother… *I have a brother?!!* XD That’s all for now, I need to start again my layout and edit his..

~au revoir!!

When I woke up this morning at 08:15 am to go to mass, when I was eating my breakfast, it was a Nido soup, I was expecting that, that thing was really a delicious soup [my favorite].. but when I tasted it and even ate it all! Just because it was my favorite, I found out that it was tasteless!! XD Maybe, it was my Dad who cooked it, and he put too much PASTA on it. I was dissappointed.. More of this, I was also expecting that my Mom is the one who will cook this morning because last night, she said that she will cook soup by this morning. Come to think of it, it was really not a big deal right? And even when I woke up this afternoon at 05:30 pm, I found out that we still have soup at the kitchen, I was thinking that it wasn't gone because nobody wants to eat it all that it made it up to this afternoon, I already took it all and wanted to eat it all by myself, but not expecting that it even gotten worse! Because all I can taste was the PASTA, not the real soup. So I feel like I was just chewing a bubblegum.. Although, I will be more satisfied to chew a bubblegum than a tasteless PASTA that makes me really sick. This was not really a big deal for other people, even with me. But I really, really like soup.. It is different from PASTA, which is my another favorite.. I realize that we must not combine the soup with PASTA..

This morning, I've gone to the mass or let me say I've just gone to the church, because we.. [together with Chantal and Siover] didn't attend mass, I think it was because of me because I was late, and I think that we cannot even sit inside the church, so why bother?! We stayed there until the mass ended so we can show our mass cards so someone will sign on it. Actually, our primary reason for going there was because of our mass cards, even though Siover haven't got a new mass card. Anyway my sisters have gone home to Antipolo while I was asleep *they always do that!!*, they've been here for three and half days. I was happy but it was difficult for me and Siover to talked on the phone when they are still here, because they've really made me angry when I was talking to a guy on the phone except for Manoel who is.. umm.. I dunno, I was confused with his gender because, he's really a guy but, some part of him, I dunno.. but he got a crush on my bestfriend, *infatuated, in love, or something* But that's horrible because, he was so emotional last night, that made us sick!! [together with Siover]. Anyway, next week, most probably on Thursday, I hope we have no classes starting from that day because the Istokwa will be on Wednesday, actually it was moved.. *Chantal said* And we will go there!! [together with Catt & Siover]. I am still not asking my parents for their permission if they will allow me, anyway 99% of my thoughts, they will still allow me to go there, one reason is.. I already bought a ticket, I am with Chantal, and I will just tell them that all students are obliged to go there.. *liar*

Okay.. I think, that's all I can say for now.. XD

~au revoir!! 

We didn't have any discussion in any of our subjects except the English because my teacher told us to read a selection from the book. This morning, we have the leaving rosary outside or at the patio, actually the cross was too big to be lifted by the balloons, so some people torned it and it was looked like an inverted cross, but when I looked at it for the first time, I just said.. "wow! cute!".. because it was too small for that big rosary, and it is color yellow, my new favorite color. Anyway.. We already checked some of our test papers, and I was so impressed because, some of them, I got the highest score in the class. Hmm.. That made my classmates angry to me or should I say, they were just annoyed because I even got the highest score while they taught me how to get it, especially in Math! XD Well.. sorry for them..

I am hoping that my score in Chemistry will aslo be as good as my score in Math. Of course, I was exempted for the exam in English, and greatfully, the Universal Prayer was not included in the right minus wrong part of the exam, it was only for my recitation.. so I got the perfect score for the right minus wrong.. I am so lucky!! I was little bit excited because we will have no class starting on Thursday, it is our sem break!! *^.^*

~au revoir!! 

It's already our sem break, since yesterday. I was so exhausted in our last day last Wednesday, our school held a battle of the bands, it was from 06 pm up to 10:30 pm. I was with Chantal Siover, and Kim. The night was great though I was annoyed by someone.. XD Since I am on a sem break and the class will resume on November 07, I am back making layouts again. And I think I improved a lot, because the codings that I found hard, well.. I can do it successfully!! *^____________^*. I think I can finish the two layouts before November 03 or before November 28.. XD And I am still thinking of buying things at market-market. I have really nothing to say right now. It's so boring staying in the house all day, doing layout, texting, sleeping *of course*.. And I don't wanna think the days next week, because next week, I need to do some of my assignments. Thankfully, not all the teachers leaved us an assignment. The most shocking news for our section was, the schedule was changed and my point is, also the teachers will be change too. Including the advisers.. *what the heck?!* Well.. our adviser told us that, I dunno if that is true, but I think the some of the teachers will be gone so new teacher will come and take their responsibility. But I want our adviser! Now that our looser section is winning! Not in sports, but contests, programs..

~au revoir!!

har.. my sisters were already here, and they bought me so much foods, chocolates. But I am not in the mood right now to post a long entry, because I am still on the unlimited text but I can't use it because I was run out of load.. That was sh*t!

~au revoir!!

I've gone to church earlier together with my sister and my dad. My other sister wasn't able to go with us, because she was still on bed and feeling sleepy.. XD After we've gone to church, of course I came there just to approach someone to sign on my mass card, and Chantal wasn't with me. But I saw some of my classmates and schoolmates there! Dissappointing, I didn't saw Siover there as I expected to. After that, we have gone to Garden of Memories [cemetery].. I've realized earlier, I've becoming more stressfull now on sem break, because of my sisters, it was really hard for me to use the pc, so that's why my entry yesterday was the shortest and senseless, I guess. And they keep on asking me favor to do something, etc, etc... blah blah.. and that keeped me so annoyed by them.. XD

I think I was too obsessed to the promo of unlimited text of smart, because of all the things I must think.. It was the one I am thinking of, how could I buy an e-load so that I may register to the promo. I am always freaking out, maybe because, my cellphone's back now!! So I am full of energy to use it. Anyway, we've arrived home safely, and I was so bad trip because I wasn't able to buy an e-load, I just hope to buy later afternoon. And I really like to go again to the cemetery just because of food stands there. XD 

 

~au revoir!!