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I still have nothing to say in here. I know I must've posted in here yesterday, but we have a lot of assignments compare today. Wondering why this entry is entitled "alone?".. I also dont know either.. XP

It's maybe because Im so exhausted this day and I dont even ate my lunch!! I hate my chem-teacher!!.. He wants us to finish our first step in our project on the time of our lunch.. Duh! We can do that tomorrow, we can even finish the whole project for the next 3 days or we can even brought our project home to finish the first steps! After we finish, we came to our classroom and damn! it was already 12:30 pm, and it's time for our next subject, and as I said, I dont eat my lunch.

I really hate this day!! It's so boring and na 'windang' aq when some of my teachers asked me something, dont know why I cant concentrate on my studies, all I can think for now is maybe because, I skip lunch and the recess for spending my time on my studies.. I just felt alone because no one cares me inside our classroom, or even talked to me.. And Im just feeling sleepy this day, so many projects and assignments.

My problem for now is how can i bring my brother's dumbells tomorrow for our practical in p.e.. XD They are so heavy to lift by a lady like moi!!

~ au revoir! ^_^

Yesterday when I said that I am angry to my chem-teacher.. Still he's sucks, we have so many things to do.. I am more exhausted today than yesterday. Thank God! we dont have a lot of assignments.. XD

And one of the things that gets me irritated is when we practice using dumbells in our p.e. class.. duh! that thing is only for boys, why should we girls also do that?! grr, I dont wanna have a huge muscles especially on my arms.. And now I've been experiencing a lot of pain in my arms because of that..

Anyway the good thing happened to me was because of Airisu.. He's been talking to me a lot of times these days and showing some concern to me. Especially on time of our lunch.. As I said yesterday, we're finishing our project, but when he saw me standing doing my work, he just want me to sit down or calling everybody's attention just to offer me a seat.. har!! ^_^ So happy!! And the other good thing is me and Starry are beginning to talk on chat but Im still irritated to him but I think he just felt sorry.. Im just freaking out right now, dont know how to explain what happened between two of us when Im getting my lunch.. He just stared at me.. Well that's another good thing.. *mayo's getting weird*

By tomorrow, I think the day would be great.. My problems are getting lesser..

~ au revoir! ^_^

Fridays are always good to me.. I came to school as early before 06:00 am.. We go home early and I dont ate my lunch at the right time.. but I still ate my lunch.. When I am going home, my ex gave me a letter, i thought it was a love letter but it seems to be a good-bye letter.. Well, that's his decision and I have nothing to do with it.. XD

I am happy today because I didnt saw my AP teacher, I really hate her among all the subject teachers!! We didnt meet our math teacher, that's one sad thing happened, even if I am not really sure with the answers on my assignment I really like her!! So Ms.Garma substituted her.. eew! XD

We have a first friday mass today for the month of August and our section was obliged to offer.. Our adviser was really happy because we've done great in front of the altar *think so*.. XD We already finish our damn project at chemistry at last! So I keep on eating today.

And of course!! Airisu keep on talking to me up to these days!! The sad thing here is, more upcoming projects to come and I dont know which of them I will do first.. XD

Apologize.. Forgot to post in here yesterday.. I was asleep, but we already finish our project in TLE yesterday but we had to clean the dirty kitchen that we used.. uhh.. dont have anything to say about yesterday. But surely none of these days Airisu dont talked to me.. And Starry keep on texting me and sending none sense messages on chat.. *^__________________^*

~ au revoir!

I´m only happy when it rains
I´m only happy when it´s complicated
And though I know you can´t appreciate it
I´m only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I´m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

I´m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I´m only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn´t accidentally tell you that
I´m only happy when it rains

You´ll get the message by the time I´m through
When I complain about me and you
I´m only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down on me (Pour your misery down)
Pour your misery down

You can keep me company
As long as you don´t care

I´m only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I´m riding high upon a deep depression
I´m only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)

I´m only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I´m only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I´m only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I´m only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me).

Ay naku.. Kaninang umaga nagkita kami nila karen and anthony para gawin ung sa computer na hindi namen na gets, pero alam na rin namen kung papano.. *nagtatagalog*

Nagtatagalog ako ngayon kase ang hirap mag english pag nasa computer cafe lang.. XD Na badtrip talaga ko kay Benedick, and sa Mommy ko... Pano naman kase, basang basa kaming tatlo ng ulan para lang panoorin ung banda ni Benedick tapos hindi niya kami papapasukin... bwiset talaga... Dapat pala umuwi na ko before lunch..

Pero bago un, na sabog muna ko.. Kasi pumunta muna kami kina eduvyrine.. harhar.. Nanggulo lang kami para lumamon dun ng pizza.. Grabe! ang bait ng mga tao sa kanila!! ^_^

Na badtrip din ako sa mommy ko kase pinapauwi na ko para lang tignan ung model and number ng printer namen.. Tapos nung pa uwi na kami, nag text na okay na, kaya hindi pa ko nakakauwi ngayon! Dito pa ko kasama si Anthony and Kevin sa STI.. Pero okay lang ako ngayon kase naka unlimited na ko after 10 years.. Hanngang dito lang dahil nakaka antok talaga ang panahon ngayon at gusto ko nang matulog dahil bukod sa malamig.. badtrip pa ko.. XD

~au revoir!

Today is Sunday and I woked up so late to go for mass. The mass will start at 09:00 am but I woked up at exactly 08:35.. damn!! I panic and my mother was angry to me, she thought that I will offer host for the mass. But it was an ordinary sunday mass. Together with Chantal, we are already late.. And of course! I saw Airisu and his friends.

After the mass.. Im with Angelo to look for someone who will sign our mass cards and he is with his sister. We leave his sister and Chantal alone because his sister wanted to talk to Chantal about web designing. Har!! I am so shy to talk to his sister.. (but his sister kinda cute..)

I was disappointed because I thought Benedick will give me the piece of the piano lyrics for their band so that I can practice it. But I never expect that he will give me such a long emotional love letter, I am so shocked.. XD Chantal already read it when we're going home and she kept on saying "This is Crap!".. When I read it, she is right.. Well that is the second letter which was given to me by Benedick.

Hopefully, I am impressed.. But I am confused by now.. XD Today is Neah Fe's birthday.. "api beerday!" And the tagboard is not functioning normally.. XD

~au revoir!

Wala lang.. badtrip ako agad kaninang umaga kasi xempre nakita ko nanaman ung pa cute kong AP teacher.. Thanks to Mr. Barrer nag over time xa kaya thirty minutes lang nagturo ung impaktong un.. Dunno why this whole day Im so 'papansin and sabog'.. All I do is just to laugh and laugh.. But one weird thing happened according to Joana.. Starry say "hi" to me, forgot what subject it was but I think it was on our time when there is no teacher.. I really miss my math teacher.. I really thankful to Joana! She have done real good things for me today.. can't explain it, but Im just really really happy, I even forget my problems now.. *^_________________________________________________^*

~au revoir!

wohoo!! Our examination was finished, this is the last day. I think chemistry is the only subject that I failed. But I dont have to worry because it's not really my fault, it was my adviser.. damn he is!! I am a little bit sure that I almost passed the other subjects and some of them, maybe I can get a high score.

After the exam, I go to my ex's studio, i think, because I am the new memeber of their band, Im their keyboardist.. har. I am so ashame because I was not expecting that playing a keyboard would be different from playing a piano that I knew.. So Im with Joana, just watching them to play guitars and the drum, and I have nothing to do.. But at least I know now what Im gonna do because Benedick called me at the phone an hour ago. He's so desperate to join me to their band because they have no one to play the keyboard, but they dont know that Im so hopleless in joining their group, but I will try my best on it. This day was so exhausting but Im still happy right now. ^_^

~au revoir!

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Why Do You Love Me

I´m no barbie doll
I´m not your baby girl
so I´ve done ugly things and I have made mistakes
and I am not as pretty as those girls in magazines
I am rotten to my core if they´re to be believed
so what if I´m no baby bird hanging upon your every word?
nothing ever smells of roses that rises out of mud

why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me

you´re not some baby boy
why you acting so surprised
you´re sick of all the rules
well I´m sick of all your lies
now I´ve held back a wealth of shit I think I´m gonna choke
I´m standing in the shadows with the words stuck in my throat
does it really come as a surprise when I tell you I don´t feel good?
that nothing ever came from nothing man
oh man ain´t that the truth

why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again

I think you´re sleeping with a friend of mine
I have no proof but i think that I´m right
and you´ve still got the most beautiful face
it just makes me sad most of the time

I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it again
I get back up and I do it, I do it again
I do it again
I do it again
I do it again

why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me it´s driving me crazy
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me
why do you love me

Duh.. Dunno really what I'll gonna say now. Umm.. as usual, I need to go to mass even if Chantal was not available to go with me because she have a headache [??].. Especially now!! I really need someone to go with me because I had to print my project because we don't have an ink at home. But that's okay, Anthony go with me, but in a while. So before that. I go with my dad at the church but I am alone inside and when going home. I thought Benedick will join me, but I was really not expecting him because I know his attitude and I get used to it. XD

When I got home, my dad brought me the old cellphone of my sister from Antipolo [i was expecting that!] and now it is my current cellphone because my cellphone wasn't charged for a week.. I am having my own world this day because: 1. I go alone at the church 2. I go and had printed my project alone 3. I go home alone 4. I ate my lunch alone 5. I do things my own way.. as if I have my own world, I even dont care to my mother of what she says, I just keep myself on the things I want to do.. XD And Im getting emo *emotional?* these days. XD

~au revoir!

Whew.. It's been a week since last sunday, that I haven't post anything in here. Actually, it's really my plan to avoid posting in here. Because since monday, I have been so emotional and so depressed.. because I had a lot of personal problems especially about my ex boyfriends, I dont like to tell the whole story in here, because they might read it. Chantal is the only person I told about it earlier this morning, she told her problems to me, but I think I'm just dumb as if I dont listen to her [??], but really, I understand her situation. But when I started to tell her mine, darn.. she started to cry [??], dunno if it is because of my situation or her? After that, I keep on telling her what had happened since we haven't talked since monday. I even cry in front of her!! damn!! I am crying right now!! T_T I was just confused of the situation, I had been receiving so unexpectable 'news' about people that I almost knew.. I dont expect that they will do this for me.. I thought they loved me.. But what's going wrong!! I dunno if who of them I'm gonna trust into.. I dunno if who is telling me the truth, even if I test their honesty, still they show me a person that I must not trust. I cant imagine this is happening to me. Even here in the house!! I also have problems!! What the hell!?! My brother and I, have a conflict last night, I just cry again.. And this morning. But the weird thing here that I keep on asking myself was.. Why I cant stop crying, earlier when I told Chantal what have been happening to me, I dont really expect that tears will flow in my eyes, and she just said that I've been emotional!! And she's trying to stop me from crying, but I thanked her for being there for me, she also cry, haha, I saw tears in her eyes, but I dunno if it is because of me or what?!.. But for real, I dont know what I'm gonna do, I think Chantal have nothing to say about my situation, maybe she's also confused to. T_T ~au revoir!

Hak.. dunno if what happened irr in my blog!!.. But I'm still happy, I'm not in Taguig, I'm irr in Antipolo in our house with my sister irr in Webber.. harhar.. I'm current experiencing heaven in here, because at taguig, it's a big hell living with my brother. But sad to say we're going home tomorrow morning before 9. And back to normal, I'll go for a sunday mass with Chantal.. ^_^

I give up my another side of myself of being emotional today, maybe because I'm far with the problems, and happy today.. But still, I'm getting more and more depressing news.. And when I get a new one, I just wanted to cry again.. *mayo's getting emo again*

So wish me luck for a better days to come!! I also thanked Chantal for fixing my blog, wish it would come out the right way. And thanks for Mr.Emo for visiting my blog as always.. XD

~au revoir!!

 

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

*eating roadhouse bbq*.. yum.. yum.. har.. I woke up at 05:30 am, I thought we have no class today because my mother told me, then I called Chantal if that is true but sad to say that we have a class, only the public schools that have no class today. But I'm still happy today, one reason is.. as usual, I haven't seen my AP and Filipino teacher, it's okay because our presentation in our balitaan was a big mess!! Thankfully, only our damn adviser graded us in our presentation.. XD

And I think, I broke someone's heart by now.. I am not sure, but it's good for him so that he won't be able to expect something from me starting by now!! I just felt sorry for him, but I just followed my feelings just like he is.. *emo?*

I don't want to tell why this entry is entitled like that!.. Because I can't tell it because I can't express how i feel.. It's just more than words.. XD I'm flattered because my friends are beginning to change the way they treat me as before.. harhar.. but Neah is angry to us.. I think.. XC I just hope it will end soon.. And I hope Arian [my cousin] will win in the drawing contest.. OMG, forgot.. Airisu is our section's representative for the upcoming contest of The Man of Goodwill.. And Mae for Ms. Earth.. harhar.. Goodluck with the two of them!!.. ^_____________^

~au revoir!!

I woke up again late this morning, and thinking that I was cramming on my assignments and projects, but I still managed to finished it, but I have still more upcoming projects so I think posting here would be irregular again just like yesterday that I wasn't been able to post here, that's one reason that I've said a while ago and number two, I just want to hear his voice on the phone but of course I'm thinking myself first before him.. I dunno if I should get angry or irritated to my p.e teacher, he always noticed me in his class!! And telling jokes about me.. harhar.. XD

oohhh... I feel so loved by him [my clover, i think you get it now], and I've been so weird an hour ago, I dunno why I've been acting like this, maybe I am so in love with him... Damn, 3:30 pm, our section go to the funeral of our classmate's brother. And as I expected, he followed me!! darn... he is serious, because as we've talked to each other yesterday on the phone, I told him not to go if he's busy, I'm just too shy.. And he told me that he would be with his bestfriend, but his bestfriend was absent today, but he managed to come. But I felt so embarrassed because our damn adviser already knew about us, that he is courting me.. Fuck the person who told that!!!! XD Yesterday, I also told him that when we will go home today he shouldn't come over here on my house because people might see us and might tell it to my father or in my family, because my parents are so strict and knowing that someone is courting me, I'll be dead!! XD But thankfully it's a little bit rainy today so no one saw us on the street, I'm so sad because I've just let him stay outside, but he's just so sweet and became sweeter today.. *worried to him* And all of my classmates were talking about us, and I've just remembered what my teacher told them about us.. "May pag-asa ba si *toot* kay Donna?".. And they were laughing as I was talking to Kevin as we were laughing so loud at the funeral, I just felt so embarrassed.. that's why I've been so shy when he started to approach me, we've been so shy to each other, I really don't know what to say to him.. But come to think of it.. Of all the suitors and boyfriends that I've been through, he's the only one that have been here in our house, no matter how many times I say to him that he shouldn't come over even if he wanted to.. he just go with me just to expressed his feelings for me.. I am hoping that my friends would be happy for me or for us now that they knew it.. And I am so happy.. *thinking he's the right one* ^________________^

~au revoir!!

As usual.. I woke up again late .. We took a short quiz on our Chemistry, but I didn't got the perfect score, and we also took a short quiz on Math, and thankfully, I am the third highest.. XD After we took our lunch, we go to the gym to watch the program Pinoy Henyo because it's our buwan ng wika .. And I saw him again, Aimee was beside me, I think I made her my spy for him because she was spying him for me even if I didn't told her that!! But when we heard the song Glory of Love .. harhar, he's smiling and pasimpleng tingin sakin.. ^-^ then Aimee had caught him doing that and they both laughed.. The program was almost two hours, and the bad thing was.. I already got home at 3:30 I guess, because our damn adviser suggested us to clean the classroom, I was so exhausted and badtrip because of that.. But after I finished this, I will here again his voice.. ^____________________^ Before that, I will finish first my assignments and edit my layout.. I am planning to do my second layout which will have so many pictures of clover leaves in it.. I wish could finished that very soon before November... *^____________________^*

~au revoir!!

Song for the Day:

Glory of Love

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero you been dreamin' of
We'll live forever, knowin' together
That we did it all for the glory of love

Like a knight in shining armor from a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
I'll be the hero that you're dreamin' of
Gonna live forever, knowin' together
That we did it all for the glory of love

We'll live forever (we'll live forever), knowin' together (knowin' together)
That we did it all for the glory of love

We did it all for love
We did it all for love
We did it all for love

FADE
We did it all for love

This day was so good yet weird for me.. We have no classes today and I woke up at 09:30 am to be exact, then I called him at the phone at 10 am. We've planned to go to market-market together with J.A. [John Angelo] at 01:00 pm but I was late because their houses was so near to our meeting place. Clover just asked me to go out with them yesterday and he's so frank and sweet.. So I granted his wish so I decided to go out with them, thinking that J.A. was not really a close friend of mine but if it is okay with him then I am okay to go with them.. XD

When we've arrived at the mall, we searched the place where we can find the serenity fountain materials, for our project, we asked the seller about it and gladly we've reached the right place so we've finished our job even though Clover and his groupmates already have their materials. I think, he just want to spent his time with me because he told me that he would not accompany J.A. to the mall if I would not go either. ^_^

So at the mall after we've searched the materials and its price, they don't know what to do next!! Then after a few minutes when I asked Clover to buy me some dippin' dots, J.A. just disappeared instantly. Later we've just found out that he was spying us, he's just messing around us!! But I thanked him because, I've spent my time with Clover alone without J.A.

So many messing things just happened when we've left J.A. at the mall and at Tagig in Keemy's we bought some burgers and bun, Clover's group of friends passed by, I though they would not noticed us but they are just shocked seeing us together. And one of them just shouted at Clover.. It was a big shame, I hope this would not be the topic tomorrow in school. XD

~au revoir!!