"I know I’m not completely over him. He still crosses my mind several times a day, but with each one of those times, a feeling of contempt also passes through my heart. Maybe if this happens enough, my heart will become completely hardened to him, and I’ll get to the point where he doesn’t affect me anymore."

ermine | 01:44 PM | April 16, 2008
is this the end?
feeling: scared
categories: College, Highschool, Mirror, The Blues, Humdrum
notes: stickied, favorite post

A day when everything is perfect and when everything will turn into memories will eventually come. But I'll probably remember over and over again...

You were there, and everyone else was there. The day where we all searched for just one thing. The blue sky, the smell of the wind, and a field of..

ermine | 08:46 PM | May 14, 2008
is this the end?
feeling: accomplished
categories: College, Euphoria

About your hesitation and excuses,
I realized them too.
Someday, will i hate someone like that, too?
If so then, more and more,
Hug my thorns into your soul,
And let them stay in you forever.

 

--honey & clover

ermine | 07:36 PM | May 12, 2008
1 dreamed with me

categories: College, Highschool, Mirror, Euphoria, The Blues, Humdrum

I went to school this morning with my dad for my enrollment and fortunately & unfortunately.. My section this 1st sem is 2-BSN 2F. From AHSE-1A, I got lower, but it's okay because we're not ranked anymore except the pilot section, some of us transferred to another school because of the tuition fee got increased, and some just want to switch another course or school.

My average grade was 2.12 last finals, I think I've miscomputed my last post about my grade. So yeah.. there it is.

Next is my schedule: 30 units

Wed :: 7:00-9:00     :: English 13a - 3 units

Wed :: 15:00-17:00 :: P.E. 3 - 2 units

WTH :: 10:30-13:30 :: Bio. Sci. 22B (lab) - 2 units

TH    :: 7:00-10:00   :: For. Lang. 2a - 3 units

TH    :: 14:00-17:00 :: Computer 1C - 3 units

F      :: 11:00-13:00 :: Religion 13 - 2 units - 2 units

FS    :: 7:00-9:00     :: P. Hlth. Care w/ RLE - 4 units

S      :: 10:30-13:30 :: NCM 100 - 3 units

S      :: 14:00-17:00 :: Bio. Sci. 22B - 3 units

------ NCM 100 - 3 units

------ P. Hlth. Care w/ RLE - 2 units

ermine | 05:39 PM | May 12, 2008
is this the end?
feeling: shocked
categories: College, Humdrum

I got home from Davao last saturday night at 10 pm, I felt so dizzy that I really can't move, it was my 2nd time to ride on an airplane. My first time was really great! Eventhough using electronic devices are prohibited, I still used my digicam to take some pictures while I was inside the airplane & also in the airport. Going to davao, our flight was supposedly 7 pm at PAL but we just rode on the Cebu Pacific airplane and the flight was delayed to 9 pm, and WTF.. I was or we were disappointed because they didn't brought us food! Though it's my first time, my parents were so shocked and they cannot believe it, it was their first time to experience such a thing.. They really didn't ask us anything, to think that they kept us waiting and we were so hungry. We arrived at Davao International Airport around 11 pm and stayed for two nights at my Tito's house in Davao city. I've also met my cousins, Karla, Sharmaine & Paolo. Karla which is also 17 years old just like me is also taking Nursing and she's taking advance class so we didn't spent more time together during my vacation there, but at least I often meet her younger sister Sharmaine who will also take Nursing this year as a freshman, but then, we didn't know each other very well because she needs to attend her 6 days enrollment at the city. After 2 days, we went to the province where my Tito usually stays with his wife and with his son, Paolo, he is the youngest of the 3, he's upcoming first year highschool so we usually spent time together but still, I still don't know him much.

We went to different places around Davao, the zoo, the park, we've also ride on a cable car and went to the hot spring. It was a lot of fun but I really felt pissed off because of some people and I feel so shy approaching my Tito, it was my first time to meet him though my siblings know him. And damn, all I can say is that I got bigger and fatter because we did nothing but to eat, sleep, watch the animals and camwhore. My Tito is actually a doctor in the province, he's the only doctor in the hospital and his' sideline jobs? He owns a farm (he sells bananas on the market), pigs, cows, & a lot more. He's taking care of gini pigs (a.k.a. hamsters) which I often watch out because they're so cute and funny, I don't know how many are there but you can see some pics later of this post.

At least, I got my cousins' cellphone numbers and friendster addresses before I went home.

One stupid thing happened just this morning, I realized that I forgot my precious and my favorite pants on Davao! I don't know what to do, it's driving me crazy.